October 5, 2006

• The shootings In the Amish School

   I am really not a television watcher, but the mere fact that I went to Pennsylvania to explore my own Amish roots, I need to write how truly saddened and heartbroken I am the past few days over those innocent girls being killed in a place where everyone in the world thought people were so very safe. I have been watching, something totally out of character for me. But I feel the need to watch and cry and mourn.

  I suppose in a way it was time for yet another rude awakening, there is so much dysfunction in our country in so many ways.There are so many crazy, demeneted, insane, and evil people who are allowed to walk the streets with access to Guns. Tell me how does someone who has a history of mental illness get a gun. Is it that easy, and how the hell naive am I. It is so sad to watch people who have such a love of God and their family and the earth they have worked for well over a hundred years now, suffer the way they are. No one ever deserves tragedy... least of all these people. I know tragedies always happen to nice people, but it is unthinkable that it could happen to these people.

  Watching the filmed funeral procession was almost surreal. Watching the horse drawn buggies traveling down the paved street knowing they have become the spectacle they never wished to be, is very hard to watch. I cannot imagine how it must be for them or their children to have been thrust so quickly into the world the rest of us know and have adjusted to.

  How forgiving and beautiful are those who lost their daughters to the family of the  man who killed them so violently, to invite the wife and children he left behind to their daughter's funeral. I honor their forgiveness, I am not so sure I could be so loving and kind, I suppose I have much to learn yet this lifetime. I forgive myself today.. for being so unforgiving to those who kill others for their own crazed and selfish reasons, I have no patience for such self absorbed miserable insane people.

  Today my prayers are for the families who lost their innocent little girls. I hope the world prays with me that they rest in the love and peace of their maker. I pray for assurance that those families will see their beloved girls again, and that they heal each other in this a time of tragedy, sadness, and their introduction to the insanity the rest of us endure on a daily basis. I pray they teach us all with their strength and courage in facing a new chapter in their own existence as they have been thrust into the painful realities we understand only too well.  

                                                       

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