November 10, 2006

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   LOL Well it took me forever to figure out how to get that damn acoustic spot off here and put something really beautiful in its place .. I am happy with the results !

  I finally got my office set up hooray - now maybe I will be much more efficient ( cough cough ) seriously I am one of those people who simply cannot think straight without having order around me - Now I need a door to shut when I need peace.

  Been looking for work - thank God I have a bit of time - there is much shit out there .. low pay crappola LOL ..but I know I will find something - what kills me - is people look for a college degree - which sadly I do not have - but then even if you have it they will only pay you 10 an hour anyhow .. which is insane to live on in NY .. so I will have to do what I have to do .. and work and work on two side things -my photography and my healing ..thank goodness I have learned and am talented at many different things .. its too bad I live here and not in a state where you can be a teacher of some of them without the 'degree' .. There is also so much I need to accomplish - I feel like a house on fire and with that slogging in mud uphill feeling dammit .. LOL

  I have been having a flare up of the Epstein Barr the last few weeks and the diabetes just adds a twist to that joy .. I am not one to whine - but boy some days I simply feel like poop on a stick .. the diabetes is so borderline I wish I could just take of 40 pounds and go off the medication - because some days I go low and its just awful .. such an awful feeling - then when I get my level back up I am wasted for a while.. crappola disease - My poor daughter I do not know how she does it - I have SO much understanding for her plight now.. I wish they would find a cure for her type 1 at least - poor kid ..

  enough whining . I had a birthday - one year closer to the half century mark LOL .. amazing because I still feel for the most part like a kid .. when did I get so much older - !.... I have been taking pictures - got some new software to make video clips of them .. so I can upload to youtube .. got a new computer with more space because I simply have maxed out this one - and until I can sit and copy to CD's all my pics and go through them and get rid of the extras .. I will work like this .. I do have them all backed up on a portable hard drive which is a great investment - I am glad I went for it

  My moms breathing is not so good again and she was here weds .. and she looked - for the first time ever in her life - frail .. very unusual for her .. so I want to spend more time with her and my dad - I put a bed in my little guest room ( which actually is my photography room also .. its the everything room LOL ) .. so she or my dad have a place to stay .. I will put my postage stamp TV in there for her to watch also when she stays we can have girly nights - my mom needs it ..

  We got a puppy .. was not planning on it - but my daughter fell in love and hes a cutie - a little brown dacshund .. I named him Larry LOL right now he is curled up by my feet sleeping with his head resting on his inchworm toy ..he is very very sweet and cute .. the old gals - they are annoyed by him because he wants to play - the old one Sparkles - she just snaps at him .. shes old and achey and grumpy - her and Sissie were very used to sleeping alot and now this little boy wakes them up LOLOL .. he plays with the kitten ( we found an abandoned orange kitten in the woods on the backroad by my house ..) and they race through the house .. I often say that the inmates are running the asylum...

  So today I am going out to buy warm pajamas and a nice cozy  office chair - right now I am sitting on a folding one thats is going to give me a hemmoroid .. I need a good chair - thats todays agenda .. then picking out paint for the den ceiling .. and organizing the guest room .. I have to figure out how to hang my vintage hat collection up ..

  it never ends when you move to a new home - I PRAY we can stay here - I don't want to go through this again...

  Mike has been grumpy I think the kids get to him -but oh well get over it - we don't have much privacy most of the time - but thats the way it is when you have kids .. they are just starting their lives .. and they need to save money - they will be here for a while .. Mike is also 40 this year .. My mom says hes having his midlife crisis .. LOL well the last time that happened - my ex left me for my secretary .. but I don't see that happening .. Mike doesn't have one it is all fine - learning and growing etc .. its all in perfect order

  And I am singing again - and singing well if I don't say so myself .. trying for the Heart tribute band - but looking for a keys player - they are hard to find .. so we shall see how it turns out - but this is a really good band so far i am very happy ...

  so thats it in a nutshell - my dull repetitive life.. LOL.. But I have such peace in my heart - and am very happy - even if people don't see it - I know what I have - and I have so much .. and soon will also have a job LOL

  love and hugs to everyone xooxoo c xoxoxoxo

  here is a little piece of my personal Avalon - its Reeves park last spring .. it is so peaceful and beautiful .. GOD how I love living here - hope I never ever have to leave .. enjoy xooxooxooxo

   

   

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