January 2, 2007

• Another New Year

     Happy 2007 ... I look forward to this new year .. I have so many things I wish to accomplish .. I took my lead from  Jassmine .. and I started my list of things I have Gratitude for .. and I am up to 49.. I have been so busy .. I need to work on the rest .. and some of them are pretty private and since online anyone can find anything .. I need to not publish them ... but .... just doing the exercise itself was eye opening .. when you list things and attempt to put them into some kind of order .. it gets interesting and you find yourself juggling them around in order !!

  Now this year I plan on doing so many things.. I have applied for  jobs and I know in mind what it is I can tolerate doing, I have prayed for the type of work I can handle  .. LOL and it is not working too much with the public .. I do so much Ministering and Counseling .. that to work it 40 hours a week more ..would simply burn me out... I realized that when I was working in a chiropractic office .. my experience in that particular practice was - that the patients were pretty much addicted to the treatment ( this happens because the stim machines help the body to release endorphins .. like a runners high- the patients I believe get addicted to this high .. especially the ones coming three days a week. ) .. Many of the patients simply do not want to get better - they like feeling good - having someone to talk to .. having a place to go and a purpose for the day .. etc... if they heal - they lose all that ...

  I found that people like this - just take take and take whatever they can .. and my energy was being drained .. that job set me up for such illness like no other .. I felt like I was losing my life's blood and energy .. so I left. The pay was also shameful for the amount of work and cleaning and caring and counseling I did there ... I was tired all the time and learned that I was taking on the pain of others, and it did its damage .. I got Epstein Barr and life has never been the same for me .. I am not complaining . just a realization I made...

  Since then I have learned that is a job I cannot have again, I am simply too much of a healer and am empath and no matter what energetic protection I use people get in and take energy away... SUCH a huge realization ..I learned that in this life .. I chose to be a huge transmuter of energy and I have transmuted so much in my life .. that I now have the physical things that go with that .. SO now I am working on reversing it ALL.

  This is MY year .....

  I know my limits and what I would like to do and that  old type of work is not anything I want to do ..LOL ..

  Now seeing clients privately .. where I can control the setting and the atmosphere and also teaching others to move through life transitions, that is so totally different. That I can do .. but first I need something steady to help me pay the bills We ALL know that dilemma ..

  SO I have many dreams for this year. Having watched the movie - The Secret, One of the first things I wish to do .. is make a board of all my dreams and wishes... I am going to start that this week.. I need to find pictures and things to cut out and make up my board.. I also have to go take a picture of this wonderful house I saw once .. when I sat there - I got the message of "You're problem is you don't think big enough !!! " ... I have never forgotten that ever.. and while I am still not working .. and I am still able to travel I plan on driving the east end and taking a lot of pictures of things I dream about .. and putting it all together

  This is the year I need to become Selfish and say NO a whole lot more than I already am.. I have started. Where I used to jump right in the saddle with projects and people .. I now weight the options.. I no longer run to anyone. If someone wants to see me .. they can come see me.. I no longer live that far from anywhere ... LOL still not one friend has come to see my new home.. and that is okay.. I am fine in my alone-ness .. I have found a peace with it all. I have Mike and my daughter and her friends were here for New Years Eve .. she simply chooses better than I !!! I suppose she has learned from my examples LOL .. besides - my daughters friends are my other children .. so I had a lot of family here this New Years Eve ....

  I have found PEACE with it ALL !!

  This year is for me. I got the new home that I like and am learning to love more each day . I have those I love in my life to support me even from afar. I see things clearer and clearer each day. I know who I can count on and who I cannot. I speak my truth more and more. I have let those people who were in my life who were a burden or not what I needed, simply float away.  In many ways I have pared down and simplified .. life has less clutter .. I want what I want .. after almost a half century of living I figured that much out !!

  SO I am going to spend today playing catch up with cleaning and organizing and making  my New Years List and taking some winter pictures .. maybe some more pictures of lights before they are all down.... and perhaps looking at sales at the local Pier One ..:) ...

  Wishing everyone  A Happy New Year .. May it be Blessed and Everything you Desire ...I am Wishing you All Abundance and Health and All Good Things

  Love and Light xoxoo carolyn  xxoxooxoxoo 

                                                        

   

   

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