January 21, 2007

• It's Getting Better Again

  I have had a few days to think about leaving that job.. and the more I think about it all . the more I think.. wow I should have left sooner than later. I suppose this is one of those instances where I still doubt my judgement and make a go of things.. but there was no way I was going to make it in this job.

  I observed SO many things while I was there. I learned so much.  At home here one of the first things I did was clean out the folder I had set up for work, the one with examples and my notes and policies, there were close to 100 pages of items that I was supposed to assimilate .. LOL okay I know other people can do it .. I simply cannot and thats okay because in many ways, I have so much more going on in my head .. and that is not an insult of what goes on in other peoples heads, it is simply the self observation of my creative mind. That othere can assimilate all that information and make something out of it and be able to enter all this into a machine is amazing to me and I give them kudos !

  I wish I could tell you more about who it was I worked for but I would get sued LOL .. But they are a famous firm and they just mow through the numbers, it is not about necessarily quality but quantity - my fiance said to me - they are bottom feeders that is why they do what they do and go through personell as they do .... Sad for the humans they are mowing through .. some of them don't mind .. some of them you can see it upsets them greatly .. some of them honestly will develop work related illnesses .. and some of them will grow old and retire from there and have no marbles left in their head ..

  I send them all light and healing ...:)

  SO now this all leaves me with - what is next .. I have been looking for work - but have just decided to get something part time - so I don't lose who I am .. working full time was really fine ..But I had not time for the creative part of me .. I enjoy working . I enjoy leaving the house and working amongst people .. I need the contact  and it also helps me to have my eyes open and I need to get out of the house .,.,,

  the other times of the day I will be working on making a living off of all the various things I do .. this is world in which we Need multiple streams of income .. there are no guarantees. I had been thinking about that job I was at and thinking .. hmm if I could put 20 years in .. and have a pension .. would be nice - but the reality of it was that the owners were both well into their 50's and were so wealthy that I am sure at some point they will retire millionaires... and then what .. what happens to all those people .. the woman who was training me was there for 10 years - and as my fiance said - she is stuck .. she put 10 years in - it would be hard for to leave because now shes in her 40's

  Thinking more about it - I would rather be steering the ship of my financial destiny ... so I am just putting it all out there ..:)

  Well I have to get moving .. sending everyone love xoxoxoo c xoxoxoxoxoxo

                           

   

   

   

   

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