April 18, 2007

• Where the Hell is Spring LOL !

  Well .. I have not fallen off the face of the earth .. yet .. LOL .. I am alive and kicking just been very busy with life in general.. I have been taking pictures and also been making some jewelry . I also decided to give the cottage an overhaul, because it needed it. The cottage has once again become my sanctuary .. and there is much I wish to do out there, I have been thinking it is simply sitting there and it is so peaceful. I plan on spending alot more time out there and also opening it up to healings and hypnosis .. I have both healing tables out there. I also have been making bracelets that I plan on selling.

  You know I had been looking for work for months and there is really nothing. I just simply do not belong in the corporate world.. it took me several interviews and typing tests to realize that ! I can type on a laptop like lightning - but put me on a regular computer keyboard with a  mouse and its dur dur dur .... dur dur LOL !! At least I can laugh about it . I did technically get a job .. but at present there are no shifts except weekend shifts and right now I cannot do weekends. If I am going to do weekends it will be crafting stuff .. and singing .. and Ministry as I have stuff coming up such as ....

  I have been asked to do my first Baptism .. hooray this is so cool and I am thrilled beyond thrilled to have been asked .. I feel with this I am on my way with Ministry .. how wonderful for me .. how wonderful for the world !!

  My daughters wedding is also coming .. so that is also why I am not driving myself nutty for work.

  Simply put .. I had an inspiration one day that I have all I need to make money .. I have abilities - talents , etc.. and I should be using them. A day later my teacher called me and said the same thing to me .. she said - What can you do .. what can you sell that is what you are supposed to do .. I said - OH God thank you because you just validated what I have been getting for months

  It is letting go of the fear that is tough .. but each day that goes by .. I do more and more letting go .. when I feel any of that fear or doubt rise up inside I just ask Holy Spirit for help .. I do not listen to what other people may say that is negative or doubtful.. I have a friend who calls people like those -'Dream Stealers ..' how much easier it is to case doubt on someone elses' ambition when you lack your own and never make a move.

  I realized that I have spent more than half of my life making someone other than myself wealthy .. I most certainly got a royal screwing with my divorce and my ex who sang the poverty blues .. and also with the bosses I have had through the years .. one of who is a multi - multi millionaire .. so Now it is my turn - my talents benefit MY pocket  .. I have many talents I can share with the world and now I shall.

  SO thats about it ... I am happy, been really busy.. but it's a good busy .. made some realizations .. did some more healing... and trusted in myself to decide my fate. I have stopped looking at the want adds and groveling for work LOL .. We shall see how it now goes ...

  in the meantime I have been taking pictures still of course .. which I will get around to putting up .. I am going to investigate any flooding by the shore later ..

  love and light to all

  xoxoxoxoo carolyn xoxoxoxoo

   

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