June 13, 2007

  • Avandia

    Ah the wonders of Modern Medicine - Not ..

    The past few years have been healing ones for me and also learning journeys. I was involved in the mainstream medical universe for many years of my life. Years back when I was in my then late 20's and the  healing crisis's began, I was totally enraptured by every word of confidence a Doctor could enlighten me with.

    Now decades later, I know that there is so much more knowledge about the many ways to take care of yourself than what modern medicine dictates.

    When I first began my journey at 28 I lost my gall bladder .. now that I look back upon it I realize that the doctors were doing the standard band aid procedure that would make them a lot of money and perhaps make me well . I was not well after that I continued to have problems for years until I discovered the world of herbals and vitamins and I was able to quell my digestive problems with them.

    Through the years and several more physical ailments, I learned more about the way things around me affected my body and I gained many tools to put in my personal tool chest of healing . I learned Reiki and LaHo Chi . I learned hypnosis . I read dozens of books, I learned about remedies old and new and read many books pertaining to those . I wandered many a health food store reading and talking with those who were knowledgable and who taught me so much.

    I went through my divorce and all the stress of raising a diabetic teenager alone. Transitions and movement and letting go and selling my home and almost everything in it. I got to a place where I was getting comfortable and was diagnosed with diabetes myself. It is the family disease. My dad has it, his dad had it .. his aunt and uncle had it. My daughter has it . Now I had it type 2.

    The drill became test your blood sugar .. eat right .. exercise .. try not to have stress ( tee hee ) . and just take this pill twice a day .. what was it .. avandaryl.  Come back for A1c testing  every few months. etc.  I was doing pretty good my A1c was almost a 6 .. I was feeling good, I ate pretty good I would say about 75% of the time,being human.

    .I was on the medication a little over a year and last fall .. I noticed .. I was feeling like crap again. but I didn't make any connections. I noticed I felt puffy and I felt I was gaining weight. I was not sure why because, yes I am a big woman .. but I was really not eating any more than I had been .. in fact alot of the time eating less. 

    Last fall I was at the shrine with a friend and walking up the path to the statue which I have done before .. I literally could not catch my breath, I was gasping for air and had to stop. I attributed it to what I call my fat ass syndrome LOL .. But the words that popped out of my mouth were .. it's the medication ..Little did I know ..

    I sing with a band and I noticed sometimes I was really struggling for breath and exhausted after practice .. I am not old that did not make sense . I felt more and more run down and tired and I just figured .. well this is diabetes, when I need to rest I need to rest and when I am tired I take a nap.

    Around the holidays it got worse, I was tired all the time and I knew I needed to look for a job but inside and this was nothing I shared with anyone but God.. I was afraid working would kill me, I felt... like I was really slowing down and somehow .. dying. I am 49 .. it was a scary thought and I was upset because I love being alive and I have so much I wish to do yet, but I truly felt -half dead ...

    Those around me were oblivious to my plight .. who really listens to someone who complains all the time .. which I don't but that is sure how I felt they were pereceiving it. I went through the spring like that and one morning I woke up and my knees were swollen and my feet hurt to walk on and they were a little swollen and I went to the doctor who sent me for x-rays .. now I could not see the Doc .. I  could only get into the see the PA.. She told me I needed better sneakers to support my knees and she might send me for physical therapy if my knees were bad.

    I went back from the x-rays and they showed a little bit of the beginnings of arthritis .. and she made no mention of the physical therapy and did not address the swelling etc. I just felt she had not found the answer I was seeking .. she again reminded me I needed good sneakers. Take some anti-inflammatorys

    My ankles continued to swell.  I was achey and my feet hurt and I called a friend who is a healer and I told her what was going on .. she said she felt it could be gout. I said you know that makes sense. I immediately learned a lot about gouty arthritis .. and I started drinking cranberry juice with water all day long .. it brought some relief .. my knees did not feel as swollen but I was still so damn tired all the time.

    Another friend of mine also a talented healer, empath and also a medical intuitive .. said .. there is something else .. its not gout .. but she could not put her finger on it. But since the diet I had adapted for gout seemed to be working, I kept at it .. less protein, no dairy, more veggies etc. oh and a ton of cranberry juice.

    This went on and I was reading and researching.. and my ankles kept getting worse . My dad has heart disease, I know what congestive heart failure looks and acts like .. if you had asked me .. I would have said .. I think I am going into it. I was out of breath walking up my front porch steps which a year before I made no problem. I felt like my body was being poisoned from the inside out. I never had a chest pain .. but I just felt like I was dying a slow awful death. My feet were so swollen my toes were like sausages.. I wish I had taken a picture .. but it was way too depressing .. I felt puffy . my face looked puffy .My muscles felt like they were wasting away .. I could always walk for hours .. now it was an effort to cross the room ..

    . I would look in the mirror and just felt I looked old.. and that is something I have not looked . I made an appointment for the doctor - this time willing to wait for the MD .. not the PA ..

    Then the shit hit the fan in the news about Avandia .. and the bells went off in my head all over the place ..I started reading the stories about it .. one of the main side effects .. something called fluid retention syndrome .. HELLO .. shortness of breath . HELLO.... causes heart damage .. HELLO .. I pray not ..

    I went for my appointment and the doc said .. I have to inform you and the Avandia... and I said .. well my feet and legs are so swollen and have been for months when I last came here ..etc.. He said have you noticed weight gain .. and I said .. yes I have .. I feel like crap .. He took me right off it . I am now injecting Byetta .. which may actually help me lose some weight - I have to say my appetite is diminished and I have more pep in my step.. but no fooling I have a ways to go .. I started spending time with the rescue horse .. when I first started I was out of breath just brushing him .. now that is getting better too...

    Thank God I was not the best patient in the world and when I was prescribed two pills a day .. I took one most of the time because when I took two I would go low the next day. I can only imagine how bad the swelling and the damage that could have been caused to my heart and God knows what else .. had I faithfully taken the two a day..

    If someone like me - who is aware .. who  watched her dad go through the Lipitor horror and live to tell.. could be damaged by a medication. Imagine someone who still has total faith in the Doctors and Gods of the Pharmeceutical Kingdom.. My dad well over a year later is just now able to walk any distance again because I know the Lipitor did such terrible damage ...

    I am feeling better, less puffy .. my feet are way down, ,my left one is still puffier than the right .. I pray there is no heart damage anywhere .. I am not as out of breath, I feel better and stronger .. I am singing so much better and am not as exhausted .. and I finally got a job .. hooray .. Now I know Holy Spirit was taking care of me by me not finding work until now ... amazing ...

    Now my other reason for writing .. as some of you may know the FDA has leaped into bed with the Pharmaceutical Industry who are in the back pocket of all the Policiticians .. they want to regulate Vitamins and other remedies .. which means. the bottle of vitamin C you have been buying for years .. you would have to go to a doctor to get a prescription for . It won't end there folks . If they are allowed to control that .. you can kiss things such as reiki, hypnosis, some types of massages, reflexology etc .. eventually  maybe even things like Chiropracters.. good bye .. it will all become regulated and it will all be owned .. which means that the government and the Pharmaceuticals and the FDA will own your Right to Choose ..they will be in your pocketbook and in your Ass.

    DO a google search on the Codex crap going on right now .. and write all your congressman and senators and anyone else you can think of and Fight for your rights ..

    If you don't .. It may very well Kill you ..

    I am glad God  graced me with the inner strength and wisdom to get to the bottom of this ..  I know it happened to me so I can tell everyone I know .. Be careful with your body it is the ONLY one you get this time around .. If you are prescribed a drug .. learn more about it .. don't trust .. You cannot trust .. because there is so much money being made .. off of our bodies .. and the Conspirancy theorist in me is not above believing that this could all be part of a much bigger plan .. to make us beholden to medications .. that fix the damage that has been done with another .. etc .. If we are weak . we can be taken and controlled.. which is where some of them want us.

    The Heart Bypass surgery and now the Gastic Bypass surgery and the Lap Band and the Cosmetic Surgery Industry and all the rest .. are in it for PROFIT .. Yes, some save lives .. but for example the ByPass surgery .. my dad had it when he was 65. There was no other alternative he was told, this is it and its risks not working - dying on the table and having a stroke etc and so on .. I will never ever forget what his face looked like in recovery from that surgery .. his head was the size of a watermelon and he was so out of it .. but happy to be here for us .. That is love ..amazing, but to fix his heart - they practically killed him and his mind has been seriously altered.

    MY Dad's father at 62 in the late 50's had a major heart attack.. When he was brought the hospital .. they found he also had tuberculosis and Insulin dependant Diabetes .. they gave him six months to live. His only chance the wise doctor told him was if he lost some weight, retired from work, changed his diet, went on insulin and took life easier .. it was possible he would last longer .. My grandfather - retired, he cooked all his own meals - he gave up coffee and drank Postum, lol yeah UGH ... he lost some weight, he was a tall big man . but he lost his tummy. He sat in his rocking chair and he played his banjo, he gave up his drivers license because he didn't want to hurt anyone and he rode his bike and went fishing everyday. He colored in the numbered picture that came every sunday in the paper, as he sat on his porch, with his colored pencils .. and that is my favorite memory of him. That and yelling at my Grandma that she was a crazy old fool and had bugs in her head LOLOL. He had nitroglycerin pills for the heart pain and he carried a chocolate bar with him in case he had low blood sugar .. He lived to be 82 :) :) :)   The insulin saved his life .. that and the fact that he changed his lifestyle and eating habits .. there was no By Pass Industry back then, it may have killed him and kept me and my brother from knowing him ..

    I have already told my family .. I will not have a ByPass.. no way  no how .

    Be good to yourselves out there .. inform yourselves.. know that to the Pharmeceutical industry while there are some wonderful things like Insulin which  allows my daughter to live and now my dad  and perhaps someday me. There are also many things on the market that are not really healthy for us .. I am living walking proof .. so is my dad ... and we are but two of millions .. and thank God the body in it's widsom has regenerative abilities and we can still walk. 

    DO some reading .. do your homework .. stay as healthy as you can .. because my opinion is .. the healthcare industry and the Pharmaeceutical Industry are in this for the money .. its Business .. and thats the reality.

    Love and Hugs to Everyone out there .. I am happy to say I am still here Alive and Kicking :) .. to fight another Battle and Walk some more Fire ..:)

    xooooxoxoxoxoxoxoxo carolyn xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxo