September 23, 2009

• A whole month

  Well my dad has been gone for a whole month now ..God I miss him so much ..we were very close and alike in so many ways. Some days are tougher than others .. some days I just break down and cry – I need to cry – it is helping me feel better.

  My mom misses him so much, she is coping well that I can see – it helps that my brother and sister in law and their children live upstairs. A few weeks back my daughter and her friend and my hubbie and I took Mom to a huge flea market upstate NY.. we had a nice day – lots of laugh – didn’t really buy anything, but had a nice dinner at Red Robin ( yummm ) .. Last weekend My mom and I met the kids at a church yard sale that turned out to be an expensive sale – I love to rummage through junk  looking for that one thing I have been looking for – but it was mostly antique dealers and no bargains to be hadd. SO my mom and I went inside the thrift store and I got two blankets for class .. to throw over my guys .. they are mostly frail and get cold easily and in the winter our room is cold .. so I am collecting small blankets when I see them ..

  I spend my free time taking pictures, keeping up my dad’s legacy – but the blue heron at the pond is elusive this year. I have gotten a lot of nice butterfly pics though .. I have some time off coming up and I just may drive around a bit and sight see .. I have not done that in a long while .. and of course take a lot of pictures, it is my passion. I have grown old for singing in a local band – they all want ‘please be under 35′ .. so the hell with them .. I will take my pictures and hopefully come across some musicians who appreciate someone older who can sing the crap out of songs .. that us ‘old folks’ like to hear

  LOLOL

  Work is Work is Work .. I am lucky to have a job – really lucky because the job market on the Island is abysmal ! I keep praying for something better to come along .. I always hold out hope you know because it is part of what keeps me going .. I love what I do .. its just the pace of it all is insane, rush rush rush .. change change change run out run out run out – feed feed feed .. change change change .. dismiss dismiss dismiss .. paperwork paperwork paperwork .. every day …  and among that is the massive BM’s and getting puked on and all the other crazy physical stuff that goes on each day ..

  and with each new month that comes .. a new piece of responsibility comes with it .. for the past year they have had us doing bus runs also .. its crazy ..

  but, as I mentioned,  I am fortunate to have a job.. so I count my blessings and I sing to the darlings I take care of and try to make their lives more fun and less mundane.. they are the sweetest people in the world and it doesn’t take much for them to smile and they love us all unconditionally .. very much .. so it is rewarding… just exhausting and at this point in my life.. I can no longer see myself working in a doctors office .. or managing a business .. boring .. this suits me for now

  I have always thought that the people I take care of were amazing advanced souls and reading some Dolores Cannon material .. validated that knowing .. Dolores is an amazing hypnotherapist who specializes in past lives and what happens in between lives .. incredible stuff really – the real deal .. anyway – she mentioned that the souls who are waiting are very willing to take a body far less than perfect – simply because they learn so much doing it .. amazing !!

  Well I am tired and I just need to relax and maybe watch some Mad Men .. cool show – cool clothes ..

  sending love and hugs to all of you out there who still visit .. xooo c xoxoxoxo

   

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