HI I am posting this for a friend on a yahoo board... I really do not know anything about it other than she asked for some help ...

1000Grandmothers <sue@1000grandmothers.net> wrote:

1,000 GRANDMOTHERS

www.1000grandmothers.net

Hello Grandmothers and Grandmother Supporters!

While grannies and other prisoners of conscience sit in jail for protesting the School of the Assassins, we all continue the work to close the notorious school in Fort Benning, GA.  Many folks, both in and out of prison, participated in the Close the SOA FAST last month, continue to write letters to local newspapers, and some have even represented 1,000 Grandmothers in parades!  We must continue to keep up the pressure!

LEGISLATIVE WORK - Representative McGovern has introduced HR 1707, the Latin America Military Training Review Act! The legislation was introduced with 71 bipartisan cosponsors and has grown to over 80 cosponsors. This legislation would suspend operations at the SOA/ WHINSEC and investigate the history of torture and human rights abuses associated with the school. Visit SOA Watch for more information about this work.

CAN YOU HELP?  We have collected over 300 pairs of handmade baby booties to be delivered to each member of the House of Representatives.  Each pair has a message from 1,000 Grandmothers urging them to vote YES on HR 1707 to suspend SOA operations.

We are searching for some folks in the DC area that can hand deliver these booties to Congressional offices this week.  The booties are being sent to a house near the Capitol and it will include a prioritized list of congress members. The booties simply need to be delivered to each office.

If you are able to deliver the booties, or know someone who can, please send an email to sue@1000grandmothers. 

Well .. I have not fallen off the face of the earth .. yet .. LOL .. I am alive and kicking just been very busy with life in general.. I have been taking pictures and also been making some jewelry . I also decided to give the cottage an overhaul, because it needed it. The cottage has once again become my sanctuary .. and there is much I wish to do out there, I have been thinking it is simply sitting there and it is so peaceful. I plan on spending alot more time out there and also opening it up to healings and hypnosis .. I have both healing tables out there. I also have been making bracelets that I plan on selling.

You know I had been looking for work for months and there is really nothing. I just simply do not belong in the corporate world.. it took me several interviews and typing tests to realize that ! I can type on a laptop like lightning - but put me on a regular computer keyboard with a  mouse and its dur dur dur .... dur dur LOL !! At least I can laugh about it . I did technically get a job .. but at present there are no shifts except weekend shifts and right now I cannot do weekends. If I am going to do weekends it will be crafting stuff .. and singing .. and Ministry as I have stuff coming up such as ....

I have been asked to do my first Baptism .. hooray this is so cool and I am thrilled beyond thrilled to have been asked .. I feel with this I am on my way with Ministry .. how wonderful for me .. how wonderful for the world !!

My daughters wedding is also coming .. so that is also why I am not driving myself nutty for work.

Simply put .. I had an inspiration one day that I have all I need to make money .. I have abilities - talents , etc.. and I should be using them. A day later my teacher called me and said the same thing to me .. she said - What can you do .. what can you sell that is what you are supposed to do .. I said - OH God thank you because you just validated what I have been getting for months

It is letting go of the fear that is tough .. but each day that goes by .. I do more and more letting go .. when I feel any of that fear or doubt rise up inside I just ask Holy Spirit for help .. I do not listen to what other people may say that is negative or doubtful.. I have a friend who calls people like those -'Dream Stealers ..' how much easier it is to case doubt on someone elses' ambition when you lack your own and never make a move.

I realized that I have spent more than half of my life making someone other than myself wealthy .. I most certainly got a royal screwing with my divorce and my ex who sang the poverty blues .. and also with the bosses I have had through the years .. one of who is a multi - multi millionaire .. so Now it is my turn - my talents benefit MY pocket  .. I have many talents I can share with the world and now I shall.

SO thats about it ... I am happy, been really busy.. but it's a good busy .. made some realizations .. did some more healing... and trusted in myself to decide my fate. I have stopped looking at the want adds and groveling for work LOL .. We shall see how it now goes ...

in the meantime I have been taking pictures still of course .. which I will get around to putting up .. I am going to investigate any flooding by the shore later ..

love and light to all

xoxoxoxoo carolyn xoxoxoxoo

......and yesterday although only in the 40's it felt like spring, it was a beautiful day . All the ice melted, which is not great news for the local ice skaters, but good news for people who do not wish to slip and fall.

I have been able to drive around and take pictures, when there is no snow and the colors are all muddy, people do not see much beauty in their surroundings, But I find such beauty everywhere I look. I always try to find color in the winter and sometimes I manage to find some

Sometimes Spirit just leads me to things or places .. and this was one of those places .. I found this on a dead end back road that I have driven past almost every day for almost a year now. We don't see all that many of these types of things on the island anymore and its a shame because it just brings me back to another time and place ...

The back road lanscape out here is dotted with little unknown parks and spaces you can wander. This is one of them, it is a place to launch your canoe if you wish to, or to simply wander around in the woods and take pictures, which is what I love doing since I was a youngster...collecting pine cones ..and leaves... this is what we should be teaching the children instead of cramming them into as many sports as their poor little exhausted bodies can take..Really when was the last time you saw a child bird watching and collecting pine cones ...

 Communing with nature and walking amongst is the best way to get exercise and commune with Mother Earth ...we need to teach the children this, if we don't - they will never respect her beauty !!

This along the Peconic River and is another area to launch your boat, the road is busy and the spot is scenic. People take this beauty for granted. This is a little waterfall where the rivers steps down a level and then runs into the town..it is a beautiful spot.

This is the Peconic River and she is so beautiful. There are many places of amazing beauty along her shores. One of my favorite places is the 13 acre Peconic River Herb Garden, wonderful place to spend a day, picnic, take pictures and then buy some herbs !!

This is Bamboo .. it is not a plant that is native to Long Island. The first place it was planted was at the LIRR Experimental farm in Medford. I LOVE bamboo because it is a nice privacy screen and it also stays green all year long and gives color at a time in the year when the landscape can look barren and dull. There are many people who hate bamboo because it is a very invasive plant and  I have heard all kinds of horror stories of it growing into the neighbors yard and coming up through basement floors and such.. In a park setting, it simply looks amazing.

And finally there is the night sky which in the winter is often an incredible shade of blue just before the stars begin to twinkle.

I have alot more pictures to upload so maybe I will get to post some more before spring comes ! LOL  xoxoxoxoxo C xoxoxoxoxox

 I have written in my CreativeIndigoRamblin blog also on Xanga .. I am still job hunting so I haven't much time to write- but I did want to catch up on my blogging on my sister site ... perhaps I shall have some really good employment news soon !!!

love and hugs xooxo c xoxooxoxo

I have had a few days to think about leaving that job.. and the more I think about it all . the more I think.. wow I should have left sooner than later. I suppose this is one of those instances where I still doubt my judgement and make a go of things.. but there was no way I was going to make it in this job.

I observed SO many things while I was there. I learned so much.  At home here one of the first things I did was clean out the folder I had set up for work, the one with examples and my notes and policies, there were close to 100 pages of items that I was supposed to assimilate .. LOL okay I know other people can do it .. I simply cannot and thats okay because in many ways, I have so much more going on in my head .. and that is not an insult of what goes on in other peoples heads, it is simply the self observation of my creative mind. That othere can assimilate all that information and make something out of it and be able to enter all this into a machine is amazing to me and I give them kudos !

I wish I could tell you more about who it was I worked for but I would get sued LOL .. But they are a famous firm and they just mow through the numbers, it is not about necessarily quality but quantity - my fiance said to me - they are bottom feeders that is why they do what they do and go through personell as they do .... Sad for the humans they are mowing through .. some of them don't mind .. some of them you can see it upsets them greatly .. some of them honestly will develop work related illnesses .. and some of them will grow old and retire from there and have no marbles left in their head ..

I send them all light and healing ...:)

SO now this all leaves me with - what is next .. I have been looking for work - but have just decided to get something part time - so I don't lose who I am .. working full time was really fine ..But I had not time for the creative part of me .. I enjoy working . I enjoy leaving the house and working amongst people .. I need the contact  and it also helps me to have my eyes open and I need to get out of the house .,.,,

the other times of the day I will be working on making a living off of all the various things I do .. this is world in which we Need multiple streams of income .. there are no guarantees. I had been thinking about that job I was at and thinking .. hmm if I could put 20 years in .. and have a pension .. would be nice - but the reality of it was that the owners were both well into their 50's and were so wealthy that I am sure at some point they will retire millionaires... and then what .. what happens to all those people .. the woman who was training me was there for 10 years - and as my fiance said - she is stuck .. she put 10 years in - it would be hard for to leave because now shes in her 40's

Thinking more about it - I would rather be steering the ship of my financial destiny ... so I am just putting it all out there ..:)

Well I have to get moving .. sending everyone love xoxoxoo c xoxoxoxoxoxo

SO much for my liking my job .. I had to let it go today .. Okay so it needs to remain nameless. That does not mean I cannot tell you what it was like.

I liked it - thats the sad thing .. there are some really nice people working there - how they remain is a mystery .. well maybe not - its just the money thing.. we ALL need it to survive that is the way the world works... but here goes.

I had been out of the matrix for a while. I jumped back in and found out that I realllly no longer belong. Wow . I do have to work, so I do have to find a job, however I need to find one that is not so crazy. the short list of all I was responsible for .. LOL everything.. I wish I could share - but I cannot .. it doesn't matter .

My biggest gripe is that all that time I did the best I could .. and whenever I asked if I was doing okay - it was okay yes .. and apparantly not .. and apparantly I was being talked about. The person training me would sneak up behind me  so I would not see her coming.. Last week when she was annoyed at her work load and having to teach me she shot all kinds of anger and shit my way .. and I just thanked her for training me.. the supervisor was watching from behind the glass ( I know this is normal ) I was given one solid day of training - then the rest was haphazard to describe it in the best way possible .Why because I was in an office where people should have 150 customers .. and had upwards of 260 or so ...I was learning software that was totally foreign to me as it was designed for this business.. and doesn't exist anywhere else LOL .. same with the billing and receiving software - same with the filing and follow up .. same with the phone calls .. and the clients who just 'showed up'

I worked at a desk where I had to borrow a stapler and a paper clips .. and they never gave me supplies - why - because I think they had made up their mind this week that I was going somewhere else .. and I was the last to know .. gee what a way to run a business.. this is a very famous national firm .. shameful ..

It was nuts .. LOL .. It was not the position I had applied for - it was one they thought I would be good in. Once I was on the floor I realized that was because their turnover rate is astounding. It seemed to me that they have a few people who are there - and the others are pass throughs .. because it is simply too much and people hit a wall.

Boy did I choose a doozy to work for ! LOL .. When I got called into the office - and told -' I have watched you struggle' - I thought - I am getting this .. its been two weeks - with not much training .. what do they want - Oh robots..

In all fairness - I Was offered another position and actually they did not want to let me go .. they wanted me to say - my boss said to me - that she loved having me there - my personality was wonderful I was always smiling and pleasant and that was something that was lacking in the office - so she offered me a different position and I said - thank you but no thank you - and I told her - I have never been let go of a job before - and I have never not been successful at anything I do ..I happen to be a very effecient and organized to a fault worker .. that I could not succeed I would say was not totally my fault.

so she asked me to hand in my resignation -but she was shocked - she did not think I would leave .. after I handed her the note - I told her - May I speak frankly .. this is the most unorganized business I have ever worked for. Really I never in all my days saw such a mess.. and the shame of it is the people that work there are very nice and I liked working there   I also asked her why she could not have dealt me the blow at the end of the day when I didn't have to walk past my coworkers with tears in my eyes.. No I had to walk past everyone - who poor things - some of them saw their future and worked with their nose glued to the screen as I packed up my belongings and left the building .0. I didn't even sign out - I don't care if I get paid for the day ..

SO I left - walked out... Part of my problem with the job was my diabetes.. when I have a low .. I should be able to sit and eat and recover, I had gone over this with the boss and she said No problem - well apparantly it was. .. at this job there is simply too much to do and the training woman was up my ass not being patient about it. There were at least three times where this happened. Shame on them .. Shame on me for not making a stink .. but hey I learned a lot.

So here I am jobless and I pray not for long .. I have already begun looking and if I have to take a cashiers job at King Kullen I will for now .. I just wished to do something with decent money and decent hours and be happy. At the moment my head is throbbing and I am aggravated and annoyed and I just want to go to bed for a week.

My blessing is that I had the choice to walk away, many people do not .. I spoke to my friend and teacher about it and she said - God reached in and yanked me out .. and I can see where that was true in a way - my talents were being wasted because I cannot operate like a machine. You see That was my failing - I am not a machine...

SO now I am looking for a job where I do not have to be a machine .. I enjoy being a sensitive empathetic human being .. I enjoy people and animals and smiling and being nice and happy. I know it is out there somewhere and I will find it

life marches on ...... xooxoxoxo c xoxoxoxooo 

Thanks to a very nice and thorough person who is training me .. I cannot go into details .. because - well you never know who is reading what - But my job is one where I have to wear many hats and learn their way of billing and filing and sending reports and their particular software system etc.. I have to really multitask. I have always been able to do that really well when I know the entire situation ..I am getting there . Lucky for me the training period is a few months long. That is how much there is to learn. It is a huge office that takes care of 100's of files...and I like it - the work is never dull and you are never without something to do so the time goes fast . It is a means to an end.

I had been out of the workaday world for many years . I worked at home with clients and part time here and there and at my ex's office years ago.  I went back to work because I simply needed to have a steady income. I miss all the things I used to do .. but I am enjoying my sense of routine and purpose again .. and the job I do I really get to help people less fortunate than myself .. that is a very healing thing.

SO my house is a mess and falling out of organization - I never get to the crafty things I like to get to .. I have to crowd things into the weekend .. I don't get to see my sweetie as much anymore .. But its all okay .. I am paying my bills . I should be able to save money. I don't need fancy - I need clothes for work - but I don't need fancy ones .. I am not a fancy girl .. LOL ..

SO thats about it .. I bought these huge posters to color in at night while just sitting in the quiet or watching television ( I am not a huge fan of television but I have a few shows I like )  .. I need to be creative and between that and creating art out of photographs .. I will be creative enough to make me happy ...I have to have that piece of me intact in order to be happy.

SO all is well .. and I am happy - tired but happy .. love to all .. xxoxoo c xoxoxxooxoo 

LOL .. that is what I feel like .. I have two songs running through my head one is 9-5 and the other is something I don't know the name of - but it has something .. I'm in love with a working girl or something like that ..I am doing well . the woman training me is nice and patient . I wish I could go into detail but I cannot .. because you know how things are and Big Brother is watching ..*sigh*  LOL !!

The work keeps me really busy - we are way overladen with work .. where the people usually have 150 clients right now we have over 250 .. it makes it impossible to catch up but we try LOL and the people who work there are SO very very nice and friendly and say hello and are polite - I really have no complaints ..

I do miss ME though . I have little time to do things .. I am up at 6 am out the door at 7;45 at work by 8;45 till 5;30 then home by 7;00 long ass day for this old broad .. but I have to do what I have to do ...

I am, just opening myself up to spirit that this is not my last stop, I need to find time for my other loves - photography and singing and making jewelry . I have some serious organizing to get done this weekend - and band practice so I will be busy - Thank Goodness Monday is a holiday

I have always enjoyed working, my problem is I can get too intense and not enjoy the fun of it, so this time I am not going to do that. I am not going to allow myself get burned out. I am going to just enjoy being paid to be out of the house and having fun at work - doing something meaningful ....

Well i am pooped .. its late I have to be up in about 8 hours to get dressed and do it again ...

sending love to all .xooxooxo C xoxooooooo

Well I got a job .. the hours are great the location is great - the atmosphere is fine - it's a big place .. and I really cannot talk about it - because that is really a no no these days - but I am very happy and feel very blessed .. I was hired right at the interview .. I think because I am middle aged and reliable and have a lot of experience doing all sorts of things..SO I will be busy .. its a 9-5 M-F .. very very cool

Now I have to share that I put out there when I started looking exactly what I wanted and needed .. I had just watched the movie - The Secret .. it is on Google video if you want to see it - I posted the link a few entries back .. That movie was ALL things I already had learned and knew- but I put them all - well almost all  - into motion . I prayed with the things I needed in employment . The area I wanted to be in. The hours I wished to work. The  days of the work week. I put it all out there. Of course I knew also that me being a Minister and A Healer - that something of that kind would come and it has. The hours even leave me room to work something part time nights if I really need to .. not that I want to .. but that is also what I asked for. I would ideally like to do healing sessions and work on bracelets and my photography at night. I feel the income from those ventures would suit me so much better than cashiering at the local supermarket. Not to mention I cannot be on my feet too long.

The best thing about the whole process is that it proved to me - and also proves to others, who learn by my example -  that We can co-create our reality .. that nothing is totally in the stars .. We come here with a blueprint - an outline .. of what it is we need to learn this lifetime for our soul growth.. and along the way we get to choose which one it is we want to learn. It is like going to a dinner with a salad bar .. Yes I will take the carrots - and pass on the celery LOL ...

Now I have to work on my Dream Board .. I have Many dreams I need to co create .. And I shall - I also have to straighten out my clothes closet LOL

So I thank all angelic help I received landing the job and I am putting out there - that I need a lot more to stay there .. Lord help me stay focused and organized and brave enough to do truly wonderful work. May I have the health and strength I need to get through each day having been productive and happy. Also I may be working 'within the matrix' but a big part of me remains on the outside looking in. I know better now and I understand my role and I really wish to stay here., So I pray it all comes together for me ..

So I will be online even less than I have been - but it's okay because I think of everyone I know here in this little corner of cyberspace and I sent them love and healing always

stay well I will be in touch xoxcooxoxoxoxo C xoxooxxoxoxoxxoxoxoxo

   Happy 2007 ... I look forward to this new year .. I have so many things I wish to accomplish .. I took my lead from  Jassmine .. and I started my list of things I have Gratitude for .. and I am up to 49.. I have been so busy .. I need to work on the rest .. and some of them are pretty private and since online anyone can find anything .. I need to not publish them ... but .... just doing the exercise itself was eye opening .. when you list things and attempt to put them into some kind of order .. it gets interesting and you find yourself juggling them around in order !!

Now this year I plan on doing so many things.. I have applied for  jobs and I know in mind what it is I can tolerate doing, I have prayed for the type of work I can handle  .. LOL and it is not working too much with the public .. I do so much Ministering and Counseling .. that to work it 40 hours a week more ..would simply burn me out... I realized that when I was working in a chiropractic office .. my experience in that particular practice was - that the patients were pretty much addicted to the treatment ( this happens because the stim machines help the body to release endorphins .. like a runners high- the patients I believe get addicted to this high .. especially the ones coming three days a week. ) .. Many of the patients simply do not want to get better - they like feeling good - having someone to talk to .. having a place to go and a purpose for the day .. etc... if they heal - they lose all that ...

I found that people like this - just take take and take whatever they can .. and my energy was being drained .. that job set me up for such illness like no other .. I felt like I was losing my life's blood and energy .. so I left. The pay was also shameful for the amount of work and cleaning and caring and counseling I did there ... I was tired all the time and learned that I was taking on the pain of others, and it did its damage .. I got Epstein Barr and life has never been the same for me .. I am not complaining . just a realization I made...

Since then I have learned that is a job I cannot have again, I am simply too much of a healer and am empath and no matter what energetic protection I use people get in and take energy away... SUCH a huge realization ..I learned that in this life .. I chose to be a huge transmuter of energy and I have transmuted so much in my life .. that I now have the physical things that go with that .. SO now I am working on reversing it ALL.

This is MY year .....

I know my limits and what I would like to do and that  old type of work is not anything I want to do ..LOL ..

Now seeing clients privately .. where I can control the setting and the atmosphere and also teaching others to move through life transitions, that is so totally different. That I can do .. but first I need something steady to help me pay the bills We ALL know that dilemma ..

SO I have many dreams for this year. Having watched the movie - The Secret, One of the first things I wish to do .. is make a board of all my dreams and wishes... I am going to start that this week.. I need to find pictures and things to cut out and make up my board.. I also have to go take a picture of this wonderful house I saw once .. when I sat there - I got the message of "You're problem is you don't think big enough !!! " ... I have never forgotten that ever.. and while I am still not working .. and I am still able to travel I plan on driving the east end and taking a lot of pictures of things I dream about .. and putting it all together

This is the year I need to become Selfish and say NO a whole lot more than I already am.. I have started. Where I used to jump right in the saddle with projects and people .. I now weight the options.. I no longer run to anyone. If someone wants to see me .. they can come see me.. I no longer live that far from anywhere ... LOL still not one friend has come to see my new home.. and that is okay.. I am fine in my alone-ness .. I have found a peace with it all. I have Mike and my daughter and her friends were here for New Years Eve .. she simply chooses better than I !!! I suppose she has learned from my examples LOL .. besides - my daughters friends are my other children .. so I had a lot of family here this New Years Eve ....

I have found PEACE with it ALL !!

This year is for me. I got the new home that I like and am learning to love more each day . I have those I love in my life to support me even from afar. I see things clearer and clearer each day. I know who I can count on and who I cannot. I speak my truth more and more. I have let those people who were in my life who were a burden or not what I needed, simply float away.  In many ways I have pared down and simplified .. life has less clutter .. I want what I want .. after almost a half century of living I figured that much out !!

SO I am going to spend today playing catch up with cleaning and organizing and making  my New Years List and taking some winter pictures .. maybe some more pictures of lights before they are all down.... and perhaps looking at sales at the local Pier One ..:) ...

Wishing everyone  A Happy New Year .. May it be Blessed and Everything you Desire ...I am Wishing you All Abundance and Health and All Good Things

Love and Light xoxoo carolyn  xxoxooxoxoo