I grew up and still live on Long Island and one of the Joys on the Island is that we get to experience the Shinnecock Pow Wow .. they have a nice set up they built a stage that looks like a drum .. which is neat . They also have been running a Pow Wow for 60 years now. It is a huge festival of dancers, vendors and food. I had a nice time. Friday night they setup but saturday was a washout, talking to one of the vendors, she told me several big tents got blown over and they had to set them up all over again. It is sad that they lost saturday as this is their biggest event all year.

I love the atmosphere of the Pow Wow.. the one thing that got on my nerves this year though was that some of the people taking pictures were just downright insenstive as hell . I love taking pictures also .. its my calling .. but I feel there is NO Need for a lens that you can see their tonsils with. Nor is there a need for taking pictures during a walk to honor those members who have died .. The natives take it in stride - they are more used to it than I am...

Despite all the camera bugs up front standing in front of everyone.. I did manage to get some really nice pictures. I used my normal lens .. I just edited them in my editor and blew them up and they are fine .. I am very happy .. SO enjoy the colors... and the spectacle .. The dancing is a real thing of beauty. ! xoxoox c xoxoxo

Over the long weekend, my sweetie and I caught the new movie with Nicolas Cage called The Wickerman... LOL .. well I think it may become a cult classic as a bad movie someday .. Poor Nicolas Cage .. good actor .. what he was doing in this movie I have NO Idea... the movie was just silly .....

But it got me to thinking.. without revealing the movie storyline .. I will just say that there must be people - men maybe - who are so afraid of the return of the Divine Feminine which this planet so badly needs ... that they made a movie to make women look awful - we are awful in this movie .. thats the way I saw it .. cunning, wily, using our feminine gifts to snare men .. who ever wrote this painted a picture of all the worst things a woman could do .. LOL !.. SO I say - hmm perhaps some fear women having any kind of authority .. especially in a year where The DaVinci Code movie coming out caused such a furor and panic .. and the reviewers tried to crush it -but people went in droves to see it anyhow .. interesting  world we live in ..

I went to the Pow Wow out in Shinnecock yesterday and took some pictures .. I did not bring my big obnoxious -let me see your tonsils - lens like others did - so I have to crop and edit my pics to make them better LOL .. I had a nice time .. although it just 'felt' flat - cannot explain it .. just not the energy of the other Pow Wow in copaigue - that one is smaller and more intimate .. I missed that one ..

Other than that - still have to get my photo website done .. working on that one today !! Will be up this week.. and so I must run ....

xoxooxo C sxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoo

I finally got my books on my book shelves yesterday - they are in no particular order lol but its okay - I got something accomplished - only took me a week LOL .. so now I have to bring in the stuff I have in my car and find room for that too .. its never ending - moving is tough business - and moving and being so involved in things is also a tough business. Now I can finally get my stuff together and get organized .. its ALL coming together

I am driving out to Montauk point tommorow- that should be fun - I will be taking a lot of pictures woo hoo .. cannot wait .. so I need to rest today - my eyes are starting to cross .. hope all is well with everyone out there

xoxoox c xoxoxoxo

Ahh Websites .. such a wonderful thing to have - such a terrible pain to create - especially when you do not know what in the world you are doing and need to rely on - 'Build it Tonight' software LOL .. it should be 'Build in a Month of Nights'... But you know my sites are getting done - and at least I will not have to make a call or send an e-mail when I want to change a picture - being of the scorpio mind and needing to control everything LOL !! It IS getting done and actually My Ministry one is up and sort of running - I am adding to it when I can ...that one is

http://www.ministryoftransitions.com .. that is where I talk about what I do and what I seminar about - and how I help people move through life etc .. its nice so far and it will link to my photography page which will be http://www.goddessreflectionsphotography.com ... and that page will feature my pictures   As you can see I MYSELF am going through my OWN transitions !

I am also in the process of fixing up the house - did the household thing . got some inexpensive shelves for the den for my books .. and I found some cool pillow covers and the dollar store to dress them up a bit - they NEED dressing up - they are home dept - particle board specials - but you know I am not the schmancy type and they simply fill the need I have for getting my books out of all the piles they are in all over the floor....

I am having the garage fixed up and having a small deck and pergola built for my daughters wedding next year and the cost is so much more than I really could afford - but the garage was awful .. needed a new roof - siding - boards replaced and that garage cost double what it should have - Luckily I have a nice friend doing the work who is doing the best he can with the price - because of that I am going to offer him healing sessions when he needs them At this point I just need it over with and need a little order back into my life ...

Still working on the Indigo thing .. but honestly mostly working on my own things .. there is no one like ME to support ME .. I have 'grown' alot in the last two months - I took a huge energy hit that got me very sick - and it was a huge lesson in - again - not letting my guard down and taking care of ME first - and just listening to my innermost guidance ..which said for the most part Rest Rest Rest ... and told me step by step what was going to happen and what was going on with the personalities I was dealing with .. It meant letting go of people I really trusted and cared about - it meant the end of my little sisterhood - but it could not be helped .. Sometimes in their confused minds -people really misrepresent WHO they are and what they are about and they get so mixed up in the lies and fantasy - that they fall into the 'Pity me ' and 'I am a martyr' traps ..and they USE those 'tools' they have used for years because - lets face it - One its hard to change - Two it gets them a lot of mileage.. so they don't need to change. For them these patterns are working.. they only do not work when they come up against someone like me - who will challenge the things that come out of their mouth !  My Ministry teacher once told me - I was a catalyst for change when I step into peoples' lives .. lately I have found that to be true

SO I took some time off - and got medicine and rested and got well and then went to learn LaHo Chi and was Supercharged. I look forward to the Fall when I can take a lot of pictures of Fall images .. I do not have that many .. so I am add to my 'collection' of nature photography. I love it - its my passion and I just HAVE to do it everyday !!

Okay I could ramble - but I have websites to finish ... love love .xoxoxoxoxo C xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

LOL this is a picture blog - and its for Jassmine - and she knows why :

I love this picture .. it reminds me of my daughter and I when she was young .. two carefree unicorns frolicking by the waters edge .. so very much alike in so many ways ..I MISS those days ..but hold out prayers that someday I will grandchildren to frolic with .. and that they are as beautiful as their mother and father

when I saw this picture on Judys' page I simply had to have it .. so I stole it LOLOL. It is so beautiful .. Jassmine has THE most beautiful pictures all the time on her site .. shes a pretty darn nifty writer too - I LOVE reading her posts ...

SO Judy - I devote the sun in todays' sky for you in honor of all the light you bring to the world ... at a time when we all could use more of it ... and I give you permission to steal one of my pictures now LOL ...

xoxoxoxo C xooxooxxooo

Well Helloooo and Happy Weekend !!

I am a Minister and I am on a wonderful mail list that other Ministers share stories on - this morning I got a story that was really worth sharing on this blog . You are going to love it .. enjoy !!  xoxoxoooxoox C xoxooxxoxoxoxoxxo

HO'OPONOPONO by Joe Vitale

Two years ago, I heard about a therapist in Hawaii who cured a complete ward
of criminally insane patients--without ever seeing any of them. The
psychologist would study an inmate's chart and then look within himself to
see how he created that person's illness. As he improved himself, the
patient improved.

When I first heard this story, I thought it was an urban legend. How could
anyone heal anyone else by healing himself? How could even the best
self-improvement master cure the criminally insane? It didn't make any sense

It wasn't logical, so I dismissed the story.

However, I heard it again a year later. I heard that the therapist had used
a Hawaiian healing process called ho'oponopono. I had never heard of it, yet
I couldn't let it leave my mind. If the story was at all true, I had to know
more. I had always understood "total responsibility" to mean that I am
responsible for what I think and do. Beyond that, it's out of my hands. I
think that most people think of total responsibility that way. We're
responsible for what we do, not what anyone else does--but that's wrong.

The Hawaiian therapist who healed those mentally ill people would teach me
an advanced new perspective about total responsibility. His name is Dr.
Ihaleakala Hew Len. We probably spent an hour talking on our first phone
call. I asked him to tell me the complete story of his work as a therapist.

He explained that he worked at Hawaii State Hospital for four years.
That ward where they kept the criminally insane was dangerous. Psychologists
quit on a monthly basis. The staff called in sick a lot or simply quit.
People would walk through that ward with their backs against the wall,
afraid of being attacked by patients. It was not a pleasant place to live,
work, or visit.

Dr. Len told me that he never saw patients. He agreed to have an office and
to review their files. While he looked at those files, he would work on
himself. As he worked on himself, patients began to heal.

'After a few months, patients that had to be shackled were being allowed to
walk freely,' he told me. 'Others who had to be heavily medicated were
getting off their medications. And those who had no chance of ever being
released were being freed.' I was in awe. 'Not only that,' he went on, 'but
the staff began to enjoy coming to work. Absenteeism and turnover
disappeared. We ended up with more staff than we needed because patients
were being released, and all the staff was showing up to work. Today, that
ward is closed.'

This is where I had to ask the million dollar question: 'What were you doing
within yourself that caused those people to change?'

'I was simply healing the part of me that created them,' he said.

I didn't understand. Dr. Len explained that total responsibility for your
life means that everything in your life- simply because it is in your
life--is your responsibility. In a literal sense the entire world is your
creation.

Whew. This is tough to swallow. Being responsible for what I say or do is
one thing. Being responsible for what everyone in my life says or does is
quite another. Yet, the truth is this: if you take complete responsibility
for your life, then everything you see, hear, taste, touch, or in any way
experience is your responsibility because it is in your life. This means
that terrorist activity, the president, the economy or anything you
experience and don't like--is up for you to heal. They don't exist, in a
manner of speaking, except as projections from inside you. The problem isn't
with them, it's with you, and to change them, you have to change you.

I know this is tough to grasp, let alone accept or actually live. Blame is
far easier than total responsibility, but as I spoke with Dr. Len, I began
to realize that healing for him and in ho 'oponopono means loving yourself.

If you want to improve your life, you have to heal your life. If you want to
cure anyone, even a mentally ill criminal you do it by healing you.

I asked Dr. Len how he went about healing himself. What was he doing,
exactly, when he looked at those patients' files?

"I just kept saying, 'I'm sorry' and 'I love you' over and over again," he
explained.

"That's it?"

"That's it."

Turns out that loving yourself is the greatest way to improve yourself, and
as you improve yourself, you improve your world.

Let me give you a quick example of how this works: one day, someone sent me
an email that upset me. In the past I would have handled it by working on my
emotional hot buttons or by trying to reason with the person who sent the
nasty message.

This time, I decided to try Dr. Len's method. I kept silently saying, 'I'm
sorry' and 'I love you,' I didn't say it to anyone in particular. I was
simply evoking the spirit of love to heal within me what was creating the
outer circumstance.

Within an hour I got an e-mail from the same person. He apologized for his
previous message. Keep in mind that I didn't take any outward action to get
that apology. I didn't even write him back. Yet, by saying 'I love you,' I
somehow healed within me what was creating him.

"I later attended a ho'oponopono workshop run by Dr. Len. He's now
70 years old, considered a grandfatherly shaman, and is somewhat reclusive.
He praised my book, The Attractor Factor. He told me that as I improve
myself, my book's vibration will raise, and everyone will feel it when they
read it. In short, as I improve, my readers will improve.

"What about the books that are already sold and out there?" I asked.

"They aren't out there," he explained, once again blowing my mind with his
mystic wisdom. "They are still in you."

In short, there is no out there. It would take a whole book to explain this
advanced technique with the depth it deserves.

"Suffice It to say that whenever you want to improve anything in your life,
there's only one place to look: inside you. When you look, do it with love."

Hmmm Well I am reading this book :

Amazon.com: The Expected One: A Novel (Magdalene Line): Books: Kathleen McGowan

I heard about it on Good Morning America - which I NEVER Watch - because pardon me but I simply cannot stand Diane Sawyers 'smugness' LOL ..I despise most media, because they take great delight in deciding what our opinion should be - I saw this woman on the show and heard the name of the book and the intro and simply had to listen.

The woman claims to be a descendant of Mary Magdaline... and well - shes Almost got it right. Her claims of it only being certain families are incorrect. I learned long ago that anyone of Celtic heritage is a descendant...so shes close..shes sooooo close .. also Jesus was not married to the Magdaline - but a woman named Mary of Bethany... but that's another story

Why am I writing about it... because a little birdy told me too .. in other words my intuitions said - 'Bring up that taboo subject again Carolyn .. set them thinking .. who cares of they think you are nuts .. its not important .. whats important is that everyone knows they have a piece of the Christ energy in their genetic makeup and can decide to turn in on at any time.....'

Its True Its True !!. You don't need to be of celtic origins to have that love of Christ in your heart.. all you need to do is recognize that anyone is capable of it .. and that there is NO seperation and that we are ALL a loving spark of our Divine Creator. Each day we can decide to make a concious desicion about how we treat all the other people in our lives... If they are worthy of love -even if they hurt us .. we can still ask our Creator to love them...no matter what and he/she will

Why do I feel so strongly on the entire Mary Magdaline subject ? Because ladies and yes gentle- men .. it is time to embrace the energy of the sacred Feminine that is the ONLY energy that is going to come back in here and save this planets ass ! ( not to mention our own .......)

We all have ridden the wheel of karma and past and future lives. We all have been incarnated as man and woman. The earth at this juncture in time is in dire need of the soft delicious and warm Loving that femininity have to offer.. so join me today in greeting that warm healing energy inside of your heart.

Male or Female .. we ALL possess it, as we ALL have been Everything

Love Love as Stuart Wilde would say .........

xoxoo C xoxoxoxoxo

LaHo Chi

I went to my teachers this weekend - and I need to say that just as initially learning Reiki was a life changing experience .. this weekend for me has been a life altering experience ..

I had been in a rut - sick - and I also was taking energy hits all over the place .. Before I left I had  to get on antibiotics and also do some big work in my energy field ..

I did a meditation where I called back all the 'pieces of me' I had shared with others through the years... I reintegrated myself so to speak .. and I also called on certain angels and guides for certain things .. I HAD to do this - it was a part of my growth..

SO of course going to see my teacher was wonderful .. we are most often on the same page in every way. She is a masterful LaHo Chi teacher - with no time really to sit and explain .. LaHo Chi can be found doing a google search for those who are curious .... in short - it is along the lines of Reiki - but much higher vibration  and less hand positions and I feel much more effective ...that has been my experience with it ..

SO I learned it and have to do 12 practice sessions to become certified - and I then plan on doing it and putting it in my bag of tricks along with the Reiki the AnRa - the Hypnotherapy - the Ministerial Counseling ..etc... I am a woman of many hats .. and I am proud to wear them all

I had a truly life altering experience because I was unafraid to walk through my fire - and I was also willing to let go of those things that were holding me back .. My head is brimming with ideas and creations I need to create .. again it is a whole new world and I am very excited by my prospects ...

I have much to do today - so I need to get offline .. just wanted to touch base and spread the love and light ...xoxooxo C xooxoxo

Ugh .. let yourself get a little stressed and you can bet your bottom dollar you will get smacked right in your 'achilles heel' area of your body .. I learned Years ago - being a vocalist that the first area on my body to get weakened by tension is my throat .. and then my sinuses are the next to go .. and especially not that I have diabetes .. my immune system is weaker than it used to be.

I am a positive thinker - but I have to face facts on this one .. I simply have to do more to shore up my immune system .. so I made myself a sinus oil and will be putting that in all the appropriate places to put it LOL.. and I am also doing reiki on myself and working with crystals.. but I also did take some of my penicillin .. I do not like antibiotics .. but I am supposed to travel and I do not want to get my teacher and friend sick .. so its on the antibiotics I go :/....

I have not been sick in a very long time .. since way before I was diagnosed with the big D .. this is definately a case of simply pushing myself too hard and leaving myself really vulnerable .. Uhm I will not be doing that again ...:)

the hardest part might be that I need to sweat it out and with the heat being so uncomfortable and the AC on .. I know that just made it all worse .. My mom hates AC and I can see her point .. because right now its causing me healing problems ... I need a sweat lodge !!! .. I may just sit in the chair in the room without AC tonight so I can sweat..

Wah .. I am whining .. and I am not a whiner .. well maybe just a little bit today LOL ..

It was really hot today - and its supposed to be really hot tommorow .. I am going to my moms .. to take them out to dinner ..then I won't see them till I get home . I am excited I am going to my friends to learn LaHo Chi at last, I was supposed to learn last year and it never came to pass .. and the way it worked out this time is amazing .. I was supposed to be somewhere else - but that did not work out - SO the universe told me - go to the LaHo Chi ... its beautiful energy .. along the lines of Reiki ... so I am looking forward to it

I meant to take some pictures of what may turn out to be the hottest day this Island has seen since the 70's .. But I simply forgot ..

I wish I had more to write about but I am in a bit of a transition so I am just letting it all the flow .. and no trying to control anything .. just accepting each day as it comes as a real gift

stay cool xoxoxoo c xoxooxxooxo