Its hotter than it was the other day - so needless to say the office is still sitting there needing to get done ..My mom told me on thursday night after a thunderstorm we are supposed to go down to the 60's at night - so to me that sounds like a good time to clean it up.. I did get little baskets to use to put pens and that sort of thing is .. problem is the space is too tight - but I am happy because I am luckier than most having the space... I love this house

I just talked to my mom who will not get air conditioning .. she has respiratory disease now so she has to stay inside - but she sounded okay - and my dad had just taken a shower and was laying down .. I invited them here - but they are comfortable .. they just will not do much .. they are used to the heat . We have ac units - one in the bedroom and one in the living room - but I want to get me some swamp coolers .. we had one growing up .. much better for the environment and do not use as much electric .. so I have been looking for those ..

I have been busy working with my friend and fellow healer and also have just been busy - and I also have been writing every morning to be in touch with guidance .. basically this morning - it was - Go back in the house and sleep LOL I had a terribly restless night last night ..and my body is really tired .. stressful nonsense .. and I have the 'cold' symptoms - which is my body telling me to take it easy ....so I shall ..I will work on writing and organizing my bedroom and go to the store later on when its not so darned hot ...sit in the kiddie pool to cool off LOL .. and read read read .. I cleaned the house yesterday thank God ...( and Ada who called and gabbed and I listened as I cleaned with my headset on lololol) ...

Will write more later on ... stay cool everyone xoxoxoxo c xoxooo

Well I was going to sit here and write - but I really have gotten nothing done today LOL ..it was one of those days where the whole shittin' kaboodle as my mom would say - got pushed aside .. and its okay .. LOL I am about to attempt - and I say attempt to work on organizing my office - it is a shambles !  I also gave the kids and my sweetie their orders - get yer crap in order in your corner of the house ! .. LOLOL.. I bet you I finish first !! LOL .. enjoy the day and stay cool xoxoxxoxoo c xoxoooxoo

Being Childlike .. is a wonderful thing .. ever since the universe drop kicked my ex-husband out of my life - I have had the wonderful fortune to have had men in my life who could be really childlike and fun to play with .. something I really needed . My ex was totally serious - had years ago lost that part of himself when he became so money and ego driven, I made some nice friends along the way after he left ...one of them was Timmy ...

Timmy was the biggest kid I had ever met until that time .. we played on the trampoline - we went to sam ash where he would play guitars .. we drove by the water and hung out talking ...we played in a band together like kids ... we watched friends together .. he was sweet to my daughter .. we made friends with his friend Billy and his children... I learned how to laugh again .. I had long since forgotten how ..

Timmy had a lot to do with me being ready for the man in my life now..Mikie .. I needed to be  a child and learn how to have fun again .. and he taught me alot. I met Mike and he is a 6'6" child .. we do goofy things and just have fun .. we go to wrestling.. who would ever have thought that I would go to wrestling. We watch goofy old black and white horror movies on the telly. We have splashed in  kiddie pools together ..we go to car races .. we went to a ball game in Pittsburgh ...we used to wrestle on the giant bed I had in my old house .. he always won .. I am big - but hes just too big .. we ate junk in bed with no one to yell at us .. lol we   manage to have a lot of  fun together .. doing things I had not done for years .. Between - my daughter and my friends I really have embraced the child within me. I was such a serious kid growing up that I was too worried about growing up and being mature .. Now I just want to be a kid again ..Lifc is too damn short !!

SO yesterday - Mike took out the Gnome that was buried in his truck and he wanted to take pictures of the gnome don't ask me - he thinks like a child - so we went to the ocean where you can see the old Shoreham plant ( that big Lilco fiasco ) .. we had some fun and so did the gnome .. well not all fun LOL .. but anyhow - here is.....the                 Gnome at Shoreham

An evil giant captures the gnome in the back of his messy disorganized truck ... the gnome has been there since early june when he was rescued from the evil Target corporation where a ransom of 8 bucks was paid to the corporation .. but since that time .. the poor gnome has been stuffed in a  bag with barely any air to breathe .. in the back of the evil giants truck.. amongst litter of every shape and size..... he is happy to be freed .......

He escapes the clutches of the evil giant and soon he is exploring his surroundings....plotting his escape .....

gnome starts his escape... he sees the the big ugly nuclear reactor... he cannot go west .. he must travel north .. so on he travels over dunes and rocks and sand ... 

gnome has been trapped so long that he needs to quench his thirst .., being surrounded by salt water he finds a can of beer one of the tall teenagers left on the beach .. he hides in some debris where he drinks the whole can ...he is now hungry .. he travels north to escape and also find food...

as gnome approaches the north .. he is attacked by the giant rock crabs that live by the reactor... he is trapped and struggling all the while thinking .. wow I am really hungry .. let me kill one of these things and eat it .....

gnome breaks free of the crabs and runs north only to be stopped by the ocean ..... he is hungry and needs to eat or he will have no energy to find a way to escape .....

meanwhile ...... the evil giant is searching for the missing gnome .... he searches the shore ......

The gnome is very hungry he decides to try his hand at fishing with the fisherman

gnome finds a fish and is so hungry when he is done eating only the head is left !!! he lays down because he is tired and full and needs some sleep .....

As the gnome is sleeping ... the sun sets in the west.. and peace prevails around him... ......

Gnome is awake and watching the clouds in the sky near the nuclear reactor and knows the sun is setting fast and he must find a way to escape ....he hears a loud footfall behind him .................

Ahhh haaaaaaaa says the evil giant as he grabs gnome and picks him up into the air ... So you think you could escape me .. So you think I would not find you ????? Bwaaaaaahhhaaaaaaa haaaaa !!!!! the evil giants voice was thunderous and frightening ...he had gnome in his clutches again ....

What will become of the poor little gnome .. what plans does the big evil ferocious giant have for him....

STAY TUNED......................

giggle !! xooxoxo C xooxxo

Wow its been a while .. I actually started to write the other night and then I got bounced offline and that - as they say - was that.  I have been busy with a friend named Lisa .. we are working on introducing to the world her healing method she created it is called the Crystal Pyramid Technique.. it is a wonderful modality of healing that utilizes the elements of the earth to facilitate healing for yourself and then others. I have been helping her put her manual together and I enjoy the creative process .. so its an intersting experience

I also am excited because I am finally going to go to my friends and learn the LaHo Chi that I was going to learn months back. It just never came to fruition .. but it seems that it finally is going to. LaHo Chi is sort of  Chinese version of Reiki.. of which I am a Master - if anyone can be such a thing !! .. There are less hand positions and I have had this healing method performed on me - and let me tell you its wonderful. Totally relaxing, I always travel out of body. There are not that many LaHo Chi practioners .. I like to learn as many methods as possible because its like carrying a bag of tricks .. My friend said its like I have this big Mary Poppins bag and I can take out all these things..

I had to write a bio blurb about myself and I got to thinking ALL the different hats I have worn in my life .. lol .. I have done so many different things. I used to beat myself up for never being able to have gone to college ..but the last few years of self -discovery and growth have shown me that I learned more on my own than I would have ever been able to learn at college. I am not knocking college. But I have a very hungry mind and I go from one thing to the next and my learning thirst is at times ... insatiable LOL.

I also have begun to really - thanks to my friend and soul sister Lisa - started to play with crystals again .. if anyone of you knows a good online crystal connection - please let me know .. they are sometimes hard to find - and the only store here by me - the prices are SO over inflated .. I have been buying from ebay but the results are not always great. I have that learning hunger again.. its a nice feeling .. it was gone for a long time - while I simply healed myself . I look back over the last few years and I am so ready to help others help themselves again. We are putting together a touring group to do speaking engagements. I think my time has come .. I am a great teacher and healer and I also care about people very deeply especially children and teenagers and of course animals...I love nature and want to travel and see the sights and oh Yes .. take pictures !!!

I do miss singing - I am not singing at the moment - and sometimes I get a little teary eyed about it - but I also realize I am in a major transition and the oppotunities will happen again ...:)

SO thats a little of what is going on .. and you know I am glad for the rain because my new house so badly needs organization. I am going to work on it tommorow Wish me lots and lots of luck LOL I would take before and after pictures - but I am too embarrased of the before ...... kidding ..... well maybe not LOL !

Growing up at my moms - I always felt she had magic hands and made magic gardens - and the older I get and the more I see, the more I feel that is true.. I was babysitting her doggies while her and my dad were away last week.. and I was totally alone with her dogs and kitty and the gardens ... it was like a beautiful little paradise - a little slice of heaven on earth. Oh How I want to have gardens like that someday .. SO of course I took pics .. Enjoy .. and Love and Hugs to you all !!! xxoxoxoxo  C xoxooxoxo

I am in the mountains of Jersey staying at a friends home and its so lovely here - the birds singing - cooler in the morning and the drive to get here was really cool !

I am near a place where My great grandfather - and this is a name - Jabez Grinnep Searles .. was born and raised .. Mt Bethel .. he was Amish .. my mom said he word the black pants and white shirt and suspenders .. but I guess he left here and kept the habits - but landed on Long Island and had a farm there. From what my mom has told me he was very strict. But there are also funny things about him .. like he had no drivers license and he used to park his car near the highway and walk the rest of the way to town ... and he used to have a still at his farm and made his own hooch .. Ahhh simpler times So even if not this trip .. I told my dad I will drag him and my mom down here and explore with them!

I am working with my friend putting together the launch of a new Healing technique that she developed/was given. It took me a while to decide if I should work on it or not - but some interesting events started to happen to me .. I started coming across all kinds of information about Atlantis - which is where this healing methodology originated .. Yeah lol I know .. but I have felt it - and it is real .. I was typing out the manual last night and my hands were buzzing with energy from simply typing the information .. any way so I kept coming across Atlantis references and I also just felt the pull to do this .. we also work with Indigos of all ages and that I had been doing and love doing - I love children and teenagers .. and they need some guidance .. so that is why I am here with her in Jersey .. She has a lovely doggie .. he is a beautiful black lab and since I have been here he has been by my side constantly .. I LOVE him .. hes beautiful and a nice companion .. when he thumps his tail, its like a boom box !! LOL He is delightful company and I feel like he is my Knight while I am here - he slept next to my bed last night and is here with me now LOL.. amazing ..Oh how I love the animals and they love me .LOLOLOL

SO thats it - its nice to be away - but the difficult part is I have SOOO much to do at home still at the new house - there are parts that are simply disgraceful LOL .. the office is a bomb and my bedroom is a bed and walls ... I have never been like this before - I simply do not care .. its like - oh here I go again - my life is morphing in another direction and its a good one .. so all is at it is supposed to be

over and out .. love to all xoxooxo C xoxooxoo

Gosh its almost a month - I should feel bad about not being on - but amazingly I have been way too busy to have those 'old' feelings lately.

I took a nice trip to Pittsburgh with Mikie - we took in wrestling of course and a ballgame and hanging in the pool - and just sightseeing .. we had a great time - it was a vacation we REALLY needed - we need more.

I have been working with my healing friend and will be traveling a bit and thats a nice thing .. I am learning a new modality of healing - actually two of them and I will eventually get them done LOL .. I am not worried - everything in its time ! I so look forward to traveling and making new friends of like mind and vibration... its MY time now !

I am really very happy in my new home- the neighborhood is - well so so - but my home is sweet and has the wonderful porch - we had to put some AC's in though  - this being the middle of the island - there is NO relief .. so it helps .. its not great - but it helps a lot . Yes there is work to be done .. I still have not organized my office - and I have a whole healing room and photography room to arrange.. I just run out of time.. its a lot of extra work - owning two homes again .. but its fine - its meant to be.. and I am coping the best I can. My wish is to manifest enough incomes so that I can hire help for myself so its not all on my shoulders. I see it coming in about a year ..

We went to see Pirates of the Carribean 2 - and well - eh .. LOLOL Johnny Depp is cuter than cute but he needs a serious bath - I dig the eyeliner though LOLOLOL .. basically the effects were a bit to gross for me .. I had to close my eyes a lot ! I liked the first one a lot better and I don't know what it is about that chick thats annoying -but basically in my opinion - shes so so ...

Last week before I went away - I had my sisterhood friends out east with me - and we went to Montauk point - I have to tell you .. if there is or was a project out there - I cannot feel it - and I can feel alot .. I am really very much a sensitive.. I did feel watched though and felt some strange physical sensations that I attribute to the passing of the people who were once there when the great flood and cataclysm hit Atlantis - I am of the belief that the eastern ends of the Island here - were once part of Atlantis and still carry an energy of that time - way down deep and in layers I cannot perceive a lot - but the women I was with - could - they said it is paradise and beautiful in other realms .. Everything that surrounds us has infinite possibilities of realities .. that is the coolest thing ...:) .. SO we had a great time - the surf is beautiful - You can walk most of the Camp Hero grounds now - and well .. I will be going back ....

The house out east is lovely - sadness though - we lost a kitty while we were away - my mom was out there and found him and buried him - she said it looked as he was hit by a car .. he was sweet his name was Tick .. he was feral - but he let us pet him - and we grew fond of him - as all of them .. he was and is a beautiful soul and he was only about 3 years old .. I cried my eyes out I swear - I could feel not only his sadness and confusion - but also the sadness and confusion of his friends who were looking for him .. He is there in spirit form and hes bewildered .. so of course I have asked St Francis for help taking him to the light so he can rest - once he has gone - he can come back anytime ...

We also lost a cat where we moved to .. its a very odd thing .. he hung out in the driveway - he really did not venture out of the yard .. My boy watched the squirrels and minded his own business and being an older cat was very content to just be on his own and lay around the house. Well one morning he was on the bed with us and by that evening he was gone .. My thought and feeling is that the asshole - pardon me, who lives across the street - who lets his dogs run with no tags no collars anything - let his dogs out and they scared my cat away. He has not been back - it has been 5 weeks - we put flyers in all the mailboxes and have been to the shelter .. to no avail .. I pray someone took him in and is being kind to him. I have asked several friends who are - for lack of  a better description psychic and they all feel he is close by - having fun - I walk the dogs every night and call for him and pray that he finds me - but hes gone. I loved him - he was one of my favorites.. beautiful and sweet and gentle and kind.

Since he dissapeared - my daughter came home with a tiny orange fluffy tabby who was left in a crate outside the drug store in town ... she called me and said Mommy - hes so young - I said bring him home .. he's already one of the gang - she named him Simba - he is sweet ..

Out east - a cat found us at the house .. shes a big beautiful house cat .. so shes in the house, made herself at home - we go feed her and the others every day.. shes beautiful and tame. I put up her picture and a poster that said Found Kitty .. but no takers..

I just wish people would spay their kitties - it is so hard to lose them and see them hit by cars .. and we can only take so many ... it doesn't cost much to spay them here - we have a good clinic that is inexpensive. For what people would spend on shoes and a handbag you could have one cat spayed and have shots... its a small sacrifice to make to be good to an innocent animal.   I have to say - my cats bring me such joy .. I love them .. they love me - I sing to them - I talk to them .. when I moved out east and all my friends deserted me .. they kept me company .. they got me through it - They are my friends and my heart ... I love them so very much ...:)

I am still taking hundreds of pictures I LOVE taking them and I always carry my camera .. I seem to see things others may not..I suppose I am gifted - people tell me I am - and I do believe I have a good eye. .. When we went to wrestling it gave me a chance to photograph the wrestlers in action - something different .. and also to play with some lights at night.. it is fun to create art forms with the camera .. I love it - I am painting with light .. whats next you know !!

SO that in a nutshell is my update .. I am furiously busy and thats a good thing for me .. I do better busy - I have learned to detach and center so I am handling it much better

the diabetes .. what can I say .. it is what it is - I have good days mostly good days - I am having trouble losing the weight . I am not letting it get me crazy and sometimes I just eat what I want to eat .. But for the most part I am really very mindful and learning every day - I refuse to get 'caught up'

I am really okay .. and happy ...

Love to all xoxooxoxoo C xoxoxoxxo

LOL I have had a few days of craps and giggles ... night before last I went to the beach to take ocean pics and sunset pictures and I got to take about 200 of them because the wind blew my car door shut with my car keys locked inside the car LOL .. All I had on me was my camera ... a nice teenage angel walked by with a cell phone and I borrowed it to call my mommy to come bring me my keys .. I had LOTS of time to think and got some beautiful pictures ..I was fine - I felt safe.. and My mom and pop came with my keys and I went home.... I was supposed to have been in on a conference call at 8 pm.. I got home after 9;30 Looks like Spirit had other plans for me .....

Yesterday I was deep into a posting about the sunset experience and I get a phone call from my mom - We had to take Pop to the emergency room would I take him with her - So I raced to my moms house and Pop was just not feeling well - to put it bluntly .. he had a nutritionist who completely changed his diet - My mom and I told him .. you know this is radical ..maybe you should not change so drastically .. well three weeks later .. he cannot go to the bathroom and hes in pain .. SO off to the hospital we go .. we sit there for 4 hours .. we watch everyone in the joint go in ..finally I blew my cork and we got him in there and he saw the doctor - who took care of everything and we headed home at midnight ...He is okay - shaken but okay - and I am sure he wants to strangle the nutritionist now .. such a lesson for him.. She had taken him off of things like Broccoli and lettuce he was eating no fats .. I said Dad you have to have fats or else you cannot go potty .. he found out the tough way .. my poor pop .. he thought he was dying ..He was telling me funny things he did when he was a 'bad kid' .. he was telling me how much he loved me and my mom and My Jenni ... he was really emotional ..that is what heart disease does to you .. and I couldn't help thinking he wouldn't have it - if he could somehow be that open and talk all the time in that way .... SO it was an interesting night and I am off to check up on him .... love to all .. xoxooxoo c xoxoxoxxo

Create Beauty out of the Mundane...... I suppose with all the changes my life has taken over the past 8 years or so .. it's as if the old me has fallen like petals and this shiny new younger somewhat hipper and happier me has taken the old fart I used to bes' place. Age is ONLY a number and I rejoice in the fact that I have definately regressed behaviorally wise .. My daughter has called it sort of a mid life crisis and teases me that lately all I buy is RED ...my chairs, the throws to go over them, my car, new clothes LOL ...

I rejoice in the fact that I have found some freedom in my soul enough to want to go out and play more .. even while not having many to play with.... so often times I just hop in my RED car and drive with my cameras.. and find beauty and delight in the simplest of places...

But yesterday I was tired and went out to my backyard to find the beauty. We have moved to a barren yard and setting up house takes time and money and more time. We all have busy lives and there have been birthdays and mothers day and soon a 50th wedding anniversary and then fathers day etc... it Never seems to end. However .. I did take the time yesterday to purposely go into the wilds of my mostly barren backyard and seek out the beauty and I found some .. I hope you enjoy it Happy Sunday ... xoxoo C xoxxoxoo