April 13, 2006

  • LOL I got this in an e-mail its great ..


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April 12, 2006

  • Moving Moving Moving !!

    LOL .. well its been so long .. I actually worked on an update a few days ago -but my connection at the moment is shaky at best and I got bumped and that as they say was that !!! ..
    Well we did it - we officially closed on our home and we are moving stuff in and sorting through crap at the other house .. The owners here relocated to the southwest - so they left alot of stuff - a couch a chair - folding chairs - a captains bed - 2 computer desks .. floor lamps .. a garage FULL of power tools and mowers and hedge trimmers etc... I have been asking for abundance - it comes in the most amazing ways !!!


    The house is simply much more than I dreamed it could be .. yes we need to do some painting and cleaning and trim work - a ton of yard work LOL and we have to install heat in the downstairs as the kids are making that their suite :) .. but shes a beautiful home .. its a perfect match - the woman I bought from is Chinese and a beautiful soul - I feel I have known her before- and I am so devoted to my Reiki and Quan Yin - that the energy is a perfect match ..


    Where I am located is near Brookhaven Lab - so the land needs MUCH healing . I know that is why I am here - and there is no fear - nothing but devotion and understanding.. amazingly the first night I slept here I had visits all sorts of spirit - they see the 4 shining lights and are curious  some wish to go home - and some just wish to be part of it - some just passing through .. and its all fine by me .. Archangel Michael has taken up residence and stands by with his sword of light - just in case :) .. LOL


    I am amazingly peaceful here and its as if my entire life has led up to these moments .. I am so happy .. so very happy ! :) .. Its peaceful there are birds .. we have trees and wind chimes and are still on a hill .. we watch the sunset from the porch in the front and the sunrise from the porch in the back ... it is simply heaven ..


    On another note .. and this was surprising .. I developed type 2 diabetes .. it runs in my family - and I suppose I  have been keeping it at bay for a while now .. it finally reared its ugly little head .. I am, absolutely fine with it . I am on medication and I feel fine -just tired once in a while, but then I am doing a lot more than normal !! .. doing low carb stuff - which I basically have done anyhow for years ..I check my blood sugars three times a day at least and my numbers are very good - the medication and my meals and my attitude are doing their job .. I am determined to lead a totally normal and healthy and happy life .. If you asked me what brought it on - I would say the stress I have been through for the last 7 years .. which I handled okay but could have done better  .. and the heartache of the divorce and selling my beautiful  home of over 20 years - that IIII allowed myself to endure -and also - a huge part of it is my genetic predisposition to it .. its making me think about all that .. dis - ease theory - pardon me-new aged  Bull Shit  ( lol no I am not angry - just honestly the way I feel about some of the new age stuff out there  ) ..some things are probably inevitable and part of our plan as are rheumatoid arthritis and Lupus and Heart Disease, Essential Tremor and certain types of cancers .. I know that we specifically choose parents with the genetic DNA markers of inherited diseases that are handed down .. My job is to cure mine If its possible and to create good in my life because of the disease  ...its too late to not hand it down - my daughter developed type 1 at 10 .. and she inherited the markers for that from Both sides of her genetic choosing, Perhaps we incarnated together so that someday we will rejoice in a cure .. or perhaps we will help others to ease their own suffering .. I am so lucky .. I have learned many tools that I keep in my healing box - to help me cope .. and perhaps it is time to teach them to others so they will not suffer so ... whatever ... Its all in the plan .. and I am telling you all this - to ask not for advice - because unfortunately LOL  when you have diabetes and heart disease - every one tells you what to eat and how to live your life  LOL .. I am asking for some healing .. I am really fine and dandy and happier at this point in my life than I have EVER been !!! :) I have many plans and dreams and ambitions - and I will be working on every single one


    Life is glorious !! :) xoxoxo C xoxoxoxo


April 3, 2006

  • Boy Time Flies

    Well I have been back but really busy with many projects I am working on. I need to get out and take some nature pictures though because I am feeling a bit of a disconnection with mother earth at the moment.


    I am closing on my new house this coming friday - and I am very excited about that ..I would not allow myself to get really excited until I had a closing date .. call me superstitious LOL ..  I have many plans on all the things I need to do and then decide the moving of all the 'stuff' .. I have yet to pack -because we are keeping this home - there is only the need to pack clothes and personal items .. I want to start new with many things .. because it will be Mikes' and My home together we need to start fresh .. we have been using my old 'marriage' things .. and now its time to start over .. I need the change in energy ..not that I will be spending a ton of money - not at all .. just some new things to interject into our energy field ...of course my daughter and her fiance are coming with us - they are making a living space downstairs - they will have room for a large bedroom and kitchen area .. and they will have to go upstairs for the bathroom - to put one downstairs is costly because it involves a sump pump .. I do not want to go there again !! .. LOL ..


    Here are some pictures from a beautiful park I had the good fortune to visit ..:) it is breathtaking there ...Oh and I did go buy myself new dishes and glasses .. at Target - they were cheap . I need to be a cheapskate and they were on sale also ..LOL .. okay more tommorow xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo





March 30, 2006

  • Well I am back - and been really busy .. will update soon :) Hope everyone is well ...


    xoxoxo c xoxooxooo  ( photo by my Pop ! )


March 20, 2006

  • Happy Monday

    I am very excited because I am driving to see my teacher tommorow and spend almost three glorious days with her just 'being me ' No dishes ..no laundry .. no cleaning .. just ME !!!.. We are so much alike spiritually, she was my teacher when I was studying for the Ministry and shes a great teacher - now we have become great friends. I don't get to see her nearly enough .. but this past year was a year of a lot of self healing and personal growth and discovery... I am happier now than I have been in years and I am going forward with my hopes and dreams and putting together a whole new life. I have missed my teacher and just will be happy to mindmeld with her again ... LOL...:)


    I spent the day with my mom yesterday - I wanted to take pictures of her - thanks to the miracle of digital photography and laptops ..I was able to take over 200 pictures to whittle down to the ones I want to keep. My mom thinks she looks old - she doesn't realize that she is beautiful. My dad pulled out a picture of her - she must have been in her 30's and he said - look how beautiful she was ..I said Pop - she still is .. My mom has softened through the years .. really mellowed out. Her young life was not an easy one and she was going through all the healing from all of that in the middle of losing her dad when she was 26 and then raising two children .. dealing with a mother who was newly a widow with no income and no place to go .. so they took her into our house - which had been hers.. and they bought it from her. My mom gave up any privacy of her own her entire life .. her world of being alone exists in a tiny bedroom where she has her things because she shares her life with my dad and my brother and his family who live upstairs. I will be happy once I have moved into my new home and My parents can come spend some time out here at the cottage by the water again so they can have peace .. because there is not much at home at all .. I was trying to have fun with my mom yesterday, taking her pictures,  and my nephew kept being nosy and being a pest.. hes old enough to know better and his parents just sit upstairs and do nothing because they don't care at all .. its a very entangled thing.. and I am detached, but I do tell him what I think of his intrusions... he just has no ears on his head to listen I think !- I used to be emotionally attached - but I had to step away .. they are all creating that reality .. and I don't need to be in it .. I am like a bee - I fly in - take what I need - leave some love and magic behind - love my mom and dad .. and fly out :) :) :)


    On a totally different note .. I have gone onto MySpace..and I marvel at the ingenuity of all the people that have really cool websites and post amazing things... artwork ...music .. amazing things .. I feel like such an inept old fart !! I think I need to dedicate some time to seriously learning how to do things online and play a little catch up .. I am so fascinated with online stuff and the entire universe people have created here.. its amazing :)


    I have also come across lately an adult indigo site and newsgroup .. its nice to know that us older revolutionarys who have been gifted and working on ourselves for years are being recognized ..After all my feeling is,  if not for us,  no matter what they believe .. where would the youngsters be now ???  My belief is that we ALL have the abilities,we all ARE one  I do not believe in 'specialness' or 'labels' However it is quite evident to me looking at these childrens' creations online - as well as adults ... that there is clearly something going on here in the larger number of sages, prophets, healers, etc now coming in.


     I also believe there have been children of the blue ray  or Indigos ..for all of eternity who were sages .. wisemen /woman .. oracles.. healers.. We have existed everywhere ... Avalon, Egypt, Mesopotamia, Atlantis, Lemuria, etc...Its just that there are more of blue ray or indigo coming in now .. the world really needs it - we are at our turning point and need to make significant change .. there are two interesting websites that talk about Adult indigos ..


    http://www2.metagifted.org/topics/metagifted/indigo/adultIndigos/


    also :    http://www.sunfell.com/indigo.htm


    I also have met a woman through the Adult indigo forum on Yahoo.. her name is Lisa, she is also an adult Indigo and she writes for an online magazine.. I am putting her article in here .. because I think its a good one -and its also how we connected .. I read her article and said - hmmm I really vibrate with those thoughts .. we have talked a few times on the phone now and we are very much alike in many ways.. so I want to close now with her writing :) Please share your thoughts and feelings.. There are so many changes taking place, swirling around us now at such a fast rate .. taking it all in is so difficult at times .. that is when I ask to be guided to the right people to help me understand it all .. and lately I feel I have been :) xoooxooxoooxoxoo


    Indigo Power - Living with Indigo energy
    by Lisa Bellini


    For thousands of years there have been people born with Indigo energy. These beautiful spirits came to be labeled "Indigos" due to the color of their aura. "Indigos" are Ancient Souls who have decided to come back to heal and educate. Due to a wide awakening and the shifting energy of the planet, these children have become Front Page news....


    Truth be told, the first step should have come from the Adults/Elders. For they are the Forerunners, they are planting the seeds. While growing up, there were those of us who had mentors in there lives, via: parents, teachers. They were lucky enough to have had role models. These beautiful spirits were taught how to use their energy. Now, they are in the world as humanitarians, spiritual teachers, spiritual counselors, school teachers. Those who were not brought up with a mentor went through life fighting one battle after another. They felt misunderstood, found it hard to communicate, and became introverted. Some were abused physically or emotionally. Regardless which group you are in, we are all going through an awakening period. Neither group is any better than the other. For, we are here for one reason and one reason only, to assist
    humanity, evolve the educational and political systems.

    As an Elder I suggest to parents of these Ancient ones, yes, they are gifted, but realize that everyone is gifted. No one should be treated any differently. The children of today need to be raised the same way we were. They need discipline, a routine, a healthy diet but most importantly they need unconditional love. They have already come to the world knowing right from wrong. This is imprinted in
    their heart; this is why they can not tolerate stupidity. They are also well aware of the labels people in our society have put on others, for instance, who is black, who is white, who is rich, who is poor, which religion is better, I can go on and on. In fact, we are all one. Now we are allowing our children to be labeled with ADD/ADHD or autism. They are being put on drugs in order to solve the problem quickly. The children realize this; they will not tolerate being treated differently. This is when anger sets in. They know that everyone is equal in the eyes of the Almighty. In addition these children will walk all over you if you let them.


    They are wise beyond their years, but they are just beginning. They
    need boundaries. The spiritual journey which lies ahead can only be understood by another Ancient one. It is an incredible journey; but they will not understand and may get scared without awareness and guidance. Keep the lines of communication open, or they will start to hold everything in. It is up to you to do so. I can not express just how important this is. These children picked you as their parents. Yet you are the parents, you are still in charge. Do this in a loving way with clear communication and unconditional love.

    Adults/Elders in the world are beginning to feel the energy, feel
    the shifting of the planet. Many Adults/Elders are unaware, so they find themselves going through a period of depression. Others are being diagnosed with bipolar. They find themselves, going back into the past and reliving their life. Because they are so sensitive, they lead with their hearts. They will do anything that is asked of them, always looking to please. Know, it is time to please ourselves. As we grow and awaken, we begin a search for our soul family. Doors will close others will open. Some closing will be friends or family. The ones that open will be our soul family. There is an energetic feeling you get inside when you have someone from your soul family. It is such an exciting feeling.

    Through out the years, the gifts will grow and grow; we have the ability to develop these gifts to perfection. This is how we were born, it is our birthright. At times in my life - I questioned:"Is this a gift or a curse?" we are looked at different, we are treated different. The eyes of an Ancient one are old and mystic. People become afraid of the energy they pick up, afraid because we have the ability to answer a question, before it is even asked. We pick up on any emotion, even those who talk about us. Yes, we are human lie detectors. Once lied to, we will find it very hard to trust again. We will tell you we forgive you, but trust me we do not forget. Once trust is lost, it is very hard to gain back.

    While we are in the process of our awakening, all that we held inside will come to the surface. And this is what is happening now around the world. We are remembering, why we came here. We are reliving our past, all the attacks get played over and over in our minds; some choose to deal with the pain with drugs or alcohol. While others find themselves in an abusive relationships. There is a part of them that still wants to hold on; still wants to help the other person. You need to help yourself and put yourself first. We feel
    as if we need to be there. We feel that we can help the abuser. We can not change the person. To be quite frank, the abuser needs to realize what s(he) is doing and must be willing to make the change themselves.

    We will all one by one come to a point were we realize what is occurring. I did this last year. I remembered and closed the door on everyone who had ever hurt me, made fun of me, made me feel as if I did not belong and all the betrayals. As I did you must release these issues before it kills you! I started Kundalini Yoga, Meditation and using Crystals. The energy, which is flowing throughout the planet is calling out to us. For those of us who have realized that they are Ancient Ones, we have started the healing process. Now, we are on a spiritually bound mission. We have a burning desire to change the world. To make it a peaceful place to live. Bring harmony
    back. The children are here as warriors, the Adults/Elders are here as the forerunners. The educational system will not work anymore.The children can not learn what is most important with the current process. It needs to become more visual and more exciting, learning how to use energy, and to stop labeling individuals. They are bored with the current schooling working with old world energy. The New World has come and it is time to change the educational system as well. We need to bring about a new system. Teachers need to be educated about the New Children. Children still need to respect the teachers, just as they need to respect their parents and elders. Remember the old values; this is the one thing that needs to come back. There are so many more gifts and many more symptoms. I will write more on the gifts to come and the symptoms in my next article. I will also welcome any questions. I truly hope this enlightened,brought guidance to some and brought a higher awareness to others.
    With Loving Grace
    Love and Light

    ABOUT THE AUTHOR
    Lisa Bellini is an Indigo Adult. Lisa has been giving Spiritual Counseling
    and Spiritual Channeling Readings for 15 years. Being a mother of an Indigo Child as well, Lisa knows how hard it is to work with this energy and how hard it is to raise an Indigo Child. She is also currently writing a book called The Life of an Indigo Adult. She does Yoga, Aromatherapy, Light Energy Work, is a Certified Usui Reiki Master/Teacher and Master/Teacher of The Golden Pyramid Healing.




     


     

March 17, 2006

  • More On the Experimental Farm Property

    I have been so busy playing with pictures and just the little craps of life in general ( housework sucks) .. But I have never been more happy.. The photography has really opened my soul up all around in a way have felt for many many years .. and I am just on cloud nine .. feeling wonderful and looking forward to doing something with it all. I have always wanted to be able to paint .. and have tried, but I am really quite stinky at it.. but now with the creation of all these wonderful photo editing programs .. I feel I can paint a mood or a style or a picture and people seem to enjoy them. My friend that I photographed is so happy.. she said to me that I helped her to feel beautiful .. I have always seen her as beautiful .. I guess I just helped her climb out of herself a little bit - and we had Great fun doing it ..


    Anyway .. I took many pictures the day I revisited the farm with my parents.. I walked a lot more of it - because the three of us were tresspassing together LOL.. I figured if you are tresspassing with Mommy and Daddy .. its okay ! We found where some of the out buildings must have been and old rusted pots and some other relics ..It was so wonderful to watch my Mom relive her youth. She remembered the way the farm was situated. We found many fence posts with the old wire still attached that penned in animals and went along the roadway..which back then was no doubt a dirt road. We found traces of deer poaching that must have been going on through the years .. old shell casings .. deer bones and even a bar suspended between two trees .. where they must have taken care of the deer.. To me its disgusting to think about .. but it just shows the progress man has taken through the years .. or lack of it. When we were leaving my mom showed me where her grandmothers farm had been, across the roads and its so sad .. its all crap now .. all of it - nothing left at all .. to me thats so tragic. Someday I will drive over there again and take pictures of the pure crap buildings that the town of Medford must consider progress..It is so disheartening how towns allow any old business into a nice area .. just to create a Buck.!! Mom told me after my grandfather left the house because he could not be on his own .. a brush fire took the whole area , and she knows her grandparents home was lost .. and she surmises that probably the houses and some out buildings on the Experimental farm burned too ... because there is nothing left but fence posts with twisted wire that have wild growths all around them and relics of very aged metal objects .. cans ..milk box ... and old farm wagon ..other things we could not identify. When I get the time I will try to get to the library and search the periodicals from that time to see where the fire ran... My great grandmothers farm wad very close to this Experimental one .. so it could be they both were in the fire. What amazes me is - if that is true .. how fast the plants grew back .. there is at least an acre or more patch of bamboo there-that is beautiful .. and if that is what could have grown back .. its amazing. There were some that would not upload because they were 'too big' and its a shame some of them were cool !!  SO anyway.... Pictures


    What is left of Prosperity Farm, LIRR Experimental Farm # 2  1910 - 1927


     





    there is one of those fence posts I was talking about - they simply made them from hard tree branches and strung wire from them ...



    My dad said this looked like a wagon that was pulled by horses .maybe to deliver milk .. notice the wooden spokes .. very cool.. this is something I have never seen in my life .. Dad said it looks like it dates back to the 20's






    this tree is a type of beech, I had these at my house I sold so I know how old they are by size - I guestimated this one to be at least 150 years old .this picture doesn't show its width .. it is use and majestic and I pray that when they clear this land - they leave her standing .. she has some story to tell.. I have a native american friend who told me that animal spirits when they pass sometimes become part of the trees they were near ..in this tree.. my mom and I found over 10 different spirits.. I tried to post the close ups, but the file was too large it would not upload .. on this particular picture I found a duck and a lady bug. Yes there were carvings from uncaring people through the years .. but others were just grown from inside the tree..amazing really .. :)



    this is the road my mom said they used to walk from her Nana's farm to this farm we were on to get milk .. it was a dirt road .. and it used to go over the railroad tracks.. now they have made it a dead end on the other side of the tracks .. At the very far end of this road over the tracks on the right side .. is where some of my Great Grandmas' farm was .I vaguely remember picking berries along the tracks when I was very young with my mom and dad before any of this crap sprang up .. I think that the house was pretty close to there also ...




    this would be the front of my Great Grandmas' property, it was on Peconic Ave in Medford .. now its just a big mess of junkyards .. auto graveyards ..Gershow recycling .. its all filthy and dirty and just urban rot and decay .. its a tragedy in my book that a town could let a place as beautiful and peaceful as this once was .. go to shit like that .. but money talks....



    More of the property .. whats ironic is the scrub oak looks pretty much the same ..



    If you cannot tell - this is an electrical sub station .. built by LILCO ( now LIPA ) back in the early 60's .. I vaguely remember driving by it - or parking near it to pick berrys .. a little further in is where my Great Grandmothers house used to be ...notice that it was along the railroad tracks .. the medford station is not too far west of this spot - maybe 1 mile at most .. my mom used to come out on the train I believe as well as by car....



    the farm is to the left of the road here along the tracks and that bridge is Horseblock road



    This is where I think my Great Grandmothers house was ... somewhere in this spot,on the left  .. and nothing remains but memories and stories ...



    My Mom told me that when they were leaving the farm - and their car was going over this bridge - her Nana would stand on the back porch of her home and wave good-bye to them.............



    Well my mom had some pictures of the farm .. it seems that the farm was a popular gathering spot for the McConville and Searles side of the family .. I guess some of them being city dwellers .. they loved going out to the country and the comforts of the farm .. outhouses .. no electricity ( they used oil lamps and a wood stove )fresh meat and vegetables and fruits and no running water ...it must have been so beautiful


    This is my Grandfather Larry Searles on the left and that hunky guy on the right is my Moms cousin Joe McConville, notice how tall he was .. northern dark irish! .. I think he has passed - I would say these pics were from the 40's .. and that was his wife Dottie I think .. lol



    Again more family .. the hunky cousin my mom had LOL and then an Uncle and his wife whos name escapes me then My Aunt Grace .. then Dottie, then that guy whos turning his head is my Great Grandfather Austin Albright Searles .. who supposedly was originally a Penns Dutch farmer from PA .. Seated second from the left on the bottom is my Mom .. Rosemary Searles L'Hommedieu



    someone in the family was not the greatest photographer LOLOL .. the mens heads were cut off .. must have been a woman taking the picture OOPS...anyway that is my Great Grandfather Austin on the left behind that young boy who is my Uncle Tom Searles, next to Austin is Aunt Grace Tate Searles with her arms on her son Bobby Searles, next to her is my grandmother Catherine Essig Searles with her arms on my mom Rosemary and on the end is my Great Grandmother Anna ... in the only picture I have ever seen of her ...my mom said you could tell she must have been beautiful .. and in this picture her hair was pure white.. mom said she worked very hard but never complained. She said she was a tall woman and statuesque ... and she could be strict ..but my mom loves her very much and misses that farm .. it is so a part of her, and so a part of me :)


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    This is the only picture of the inside of my Great Grandparents house ..this is my Great Grandfather Austin .. having as my mom said - his favorite beverage ...



    Very recently, I felt it was time to check into the Ancestry pages again to find some more McConvilles.. and LOL I did . I think Nana has clearly been leading this intuitive around by the nose ....I found a distant cousin who happened to know a bit more than I did and my mom and her sister knew..My mom and her sister had always heard that Nana had lived in an orphanage .. and it turns out they were right .. Nana's mother died in childbirth and her husband Pete, my great grandmothers' father- eventually met a woman from the hamptons and left the children to the orphanages to be taken care of .. he started working I found in the Brooklyn Eagle online - at St Johnsland .. which turned into the Kings Park Psychiatric center..( you cannot imagine how many times I have been drawn to look at pictures of that old hospital ..hmmmm) My cousin said his Grandmother is my Great Grandmothers neice and she has many memories of the farm .. she is turning 90 this year - I would love for my mom to get to talk to her ..He also said that as the McConville children grew older each one would get another sibling out of the Orphanage .. we have no idea where this orphanage would be - but we are thinking Brooklyn as that is where they are from and that is the place the Brooklyn Eagle article states...I have no idea how or where my Great Grandparents met .. from what I understand She was taller than he ..My mom tells me that My Great Grandfather would be sitting and singing little ditties and my Great Grandmother would shout Austin ! That's Enough !! LOL .. Love that story .. they must have been very entertaining .. and they certainly were very loved ...


    SO all of this is dedicated to you Nana .. as my mom fondly calls you .. I never met you - you passed before I was born .. but somehow lately I feel that you have been pushing me around and having me visit the farms area and take lots of pictures and just get this down in history somehow .. I need to tell you no matter what you thought .. you are very important in my eyes.. all you did .. people are dreaming to someday do again with homesteading and farming and moving from the hustle and bustle of the city .. to carve out a piece of paradise of your very own ..So here's to you Nana... someday we shall meet and you can tell me all about you ..


    Anna Anastacia McConville Searles


    1875-1950



     


     

March 16, 2006

  • Mother Earth and the Universe put on Quite a Show for me :)

    I had to go to the beach to get some rocks .. they hold such great energy because they are tossed around in the ocean and travel here from other places and then lay about in the sun .. just waiting for someone like me to take them home and play with their magic...


    The day was windy and cold - but magnificant .. and I was going to go to the beach down the street from me - but then my intuition - no doubt all my guides who sometimes know better said - No go to the Other beach .. we have a beach near us that is secluded and down a steep incline .. you cannot go in the snow and rain because unless you have a truck .. you are down there until the weather clears ! LOL .. so I went and wow did Mother Nature have a beautiful setting for me .. I enjoyed taking many pictures and picking up my rocks and was even prompted to pick up sticks .. to make some wands with .. I got a lot of treaures and gifts yesterday and my Miracle was getting there to have it all .. then later on the sun was setting as I was driving into town and I was able to get some amazing pics .. so - Other than that I have been very busy taking hundreds of pictures and having fun with them ..... xoxoxooxoxooxo C xoxoxoxoxoxoxo















     


    Then when I got home .. it was glamour photos for my daughters ratties . Tiny and Kix ..




     

March 13, 2006

  • I have been a Busy Girl !

    Well I again do not have much time to post. I am absolutely fine and just busy busy busy - with the move .. with the house .. with life in general .. I am a bit tired and going to take a nap soon ! .. This past friday I spent the night with my wonderful friend Marie, I wanted to take some shots that I could work on artistically for her .. Marie is really photogenic and lots of fun and also she is very comfortable with me .. so we spent hours just being 'girls playing dress up' I wanted to share with you a few we did so far. I took literally hundreds of pics .. I plan on next doing my daughter and her cousin and also my mom .. I really  love photography ..I have not felt this creatively alive in years :) Its such a blessing. I also did get back to that farm again with my folks and took more pictures - we found some 'relics' so that may be my next post . I did send a letter and pics to my local paper - just voicing my opinion that its a shame that a farm that brought many people to the island to explore via the LIRR could not be preserved on the spot it was on somehow.. its a very personal issue because my Grandfather worked there .. but all the same - History is history - its important we remember how we go to where we are - its also nice to look back to see how simple it once was and could be again !! :) .. cxoxoxoxoxoxox









    this last few are our interpretation of a Spirit Guide who works with Marie during her meditations, spiritual readings ( shes very connected  ! ) and energy healings .. he is a native american guide and he is a very loving yet serious spirit ..h e sometimes steps right in .. these pictures are so different from the others, I can see him in her eyes and face and expressions ... 



    I asked him how he feels about the conditions his decendants live in he got very emotional and sad...



    I hope you enjoyed these photos.. I have so many more - and I have a true passion for doing these :) .. enjoy the week .. love and light to everyone !! xooxoxox C xoxoxoxox

March 12, 2006

  • Gosh I am so busy....I am going to try to post later on ... have taken a ton of pictures :) love and hugs to all xxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

March 6, 2006

  • A few days back I posted about finding some family information about my Great Grandmother who had a farm out in Medford, Long Island. I also posted a picture of the LIRR Experimental farm that was near my great grandparents farm. Sunday I just felt the urge to go and look around. Mike drove me and I took my trusty cameras and off we went. Perhaps some background information would be nice ....


    The Long Island Railroad or LIRR had in its employ a man named Hal Fullerton although not Long Island born he was a photographer and was hired by the LIRR to promote the railroad and also  Long Island.. one of these promotions was two create a farm, and successfuly grow an abundance of crops on what was deemed to be the worst farm land they could find .. the first farm was situated in Wading River. Hal and his wife Edith were amateur agriculturalists. Hi wife Edith ( by the way 19 years his junior )  was what he called his junior partner, although all decisions and responsibilities were made 50/50. The Wading River farm, which Edith had named Peace and Plenty, was utlimately a success and the Fullertons had a dinner for the press to exhibit all the crops they had raised.They garnered much good publicity from this event. The decision was made to start a second Experimental Farm in Medford. They named it Prosperity Farm.  Again a location with what was deemed poor soil was chosen and the farming began. This is the farm where my grandfather worked when he was young. At that time My great grandparents starting farming in Medford also on 10 acres of the same kind of land the Fullertons were farming. I wish I could travel back to that time to hear the discussions they no doubt had about farming that type of land. My grandfather passed when I was only 2 .I never got the chance to ask him about it. My grandmother said very little, she did talk about it, but I was young and sadly not aware of the importance of paying good attention . I do know that my great grandfather was Amish and he was from Pennsylvania near the Delaware Water Gap. I also know that Edith Fullerton was also from Pennsylvania . I have always toyed with the idea that perhaps they knew each other somehow - and that is how My Great Grandparents wound up out in Medford.. which was, at the time, as rural and desolate as you could get on the island. Through the years it grew.


    Prosperity farm ran from 1910- 1927, when the railroad closed it down .. That  may not seem like much time -but looking at that span of years from afar now .. that's almost half a lifetime of work and love and creating, planning, tending and overall devotion to that plot of land. If I could ask Edith was she happy it closed I would venture to say - she might say no -from what I have heard and what I have seen in pictures, it was a truly lovely spot that she had created with her husband and her children from next to nothing but the soil they stepped on. I have seen pictures of their house it was beautiful and very comfortable looking. There are several books published about the farm and their lives, two are:


      My Long Island Growing Up on Hal Fullerton's Blessed Isle 
      by Eleanor F. Fergueson....
     and another is named ..


     The Junior Partner, Edith Loring Fullerton, Long Island Pioneer  by Anne Nauman


    From what I understand the books are kind of rare and may be available at the Suffolk County Historical Society Library. Anyhow thats the background. That farm as it was back then has been gone close to 100 years. I do not know if someone else took up farming on that land after the LIRR decided to close it down. I would be surprised if no one did ..I remember as a child in the 60's going past it as my parents took my brother and I to where my Great Grandparents farmed which was across the railroad tracks from the Prosperity farm. I have very little recollection as I was young and soon thereafter the properties were sold and the area became an industrial area and businesses that deal with car parts.. it is to say the least .. terribly ugly and it really saddens me to no end that a place that I have heard described as paradise is now so polluted and wasted :( ...

    A few years back -probably more than a few - my Aunt Dottie came up from florida to visit my mother and we all drove out to the spot where this farm was . It was so nice to watch them talk about it. My Aunt stood and pointed - over there is where the water tower was .. and that is the road we used to get here to get the milk.. They laughed and they reminisced.. to my mom its her favorite memory .. to my Aunt .. not so much .. but she made the best of it....

     

    SO as I said in the beginning of this lengthy diatribe LOL .. Sunday I had the urge to go to the location of where the Prosperity farm used to be. There is a road through it now but much of it is findable. They planted bamboo at that farm and I have read that it was the first bamboo planted on the Island. 

    We got there about 3:30 pm and I ignored the no tresspassing signs and went in with my trusty camera. I walked around and took many pictures, that no doubt mean nothing to anyone but me and my mom. I am so glad I went because the entire area that I walked was marked off as house plots to be divided up and houses built. Thats my take on it. It looked like half acre plots. I am amazed really that the land lasted so long with all the ridiculous building they are doing on the island. I guess someone prompted me to go and take pictures before the bamboo is gone and the wildness is gone. I was very saddened by the whole episode, yet grateful that I was led to the spot.

    On the way out the nieghbor who lived next door came out of his house ( LOL I am not surprised I was tresspassing next to his house ) I told him my story and he was really happy to hear it. He told me his mother had a collection of articles and pictures of the farm and she would probably love talking to my mother. I told him about the pink lot markers. He said he had seen men in their surveying, but when he went to the town there was nothing at the planning board. I told him to go to the county center and see who bought the propery .. its no doubt in the preplanning stages. Soon there will be nothing left of that wonderful piece of Long Island History.  I took lots of pictures like I said of whats left .. for reference's sake here is a picture of what it looked around 1920 after they cleared the land for farming vegetables ...

     


     

    When I was exploring the area I was hoping to come across something from one of the buildings .. anything that was left is probably long gone .. it was overgrown and there were raspberry brambles and since there was snow on the ground I did not want to misstep and slip or fall.. So it was slow going. I got into the center and there was a little more clearing and I came upon a tree that had been there for a while.

     


     

    This next picture looks to me like an old cement fence post . I have seen in other pictures a fence running in front of one of the farm buildings and it looked like posts like these and some sort of wire cable running through them all to form a fence . I know in front of that fence is where the crops were grown .. I was fascinated that one thing that could have been on the farm was still there :)

     


     

    A big chunk of cement and an old steering wheel.. I surmised that there was probably a well somewhere on the grounds and with the snow and the big dip near that cement, I was not getting too close to that !

     


     

    towards the middle of the land beyond that marker I saw many different kinds of very overgrown evergreens of different types. These are not from this area .. they were most likely planted at one time and have obviously been growing. Scrub Pines are what mostly grow in this area of the island and it is in or near part of the Pine Barrens that people have fought so hard to preserve..

     


     

    View looking to the north where the expressway is now, I have no idea how far back this farm ran and what year the expressway was built...but you could hear it in where I was and it was quite loud. You can see that this was at one time probably mostly cleared and maybe a lawn of some kind .. this part was mostly clear except for some undergrowth and trees here and there. It was not as much of a thicket as the front part.. the front was loaded near the bamboo with overgrown raspberry vines .. that at one time were no doubt not so unruly and were harvested.

     








       






     


    There was sort of a clearning here also and an over grown ornamental bush or shrub of some sort that I cannot identify .. but again it looks as if its been there some years.

     


     

    One of the things that really struck me was that while I was in there taking pictures all around me there was such peace, except for the sound of the expressway .. the only thing I heard were birds going from tree to tree singing and it was so beautiful to watch. If houses are built I am sure they are not the only creatures who will have to move on. ...

     


     

    I would love to be able to go back when its warm and just sit on the ground and commune with the nature and history of this spot and let it tell me its' story but I am not so sure thats going to be possible...

     


     

    I wish I Could travel back the hundred years so I could sit amongst the peace and tranquility of not many trains .. hardly any cars .. and no planes.. no electricity.. no televisions and cars with horrible booming stereos interupting my thoughts.. hundreds of acres of farm land surrounding me ... Gods' beauty all around .. I get all choked up inside when I think about how it must have been really like paradise on earth


     


     


     


     

    The trip would not have been complete without exploring  the field of bamboo - which stunned me with its beauty and majesty. I know many people dislike bamboo because it spreads so quickly and its hard to stop it .. but there is a certain beauty to the wildness in the way it grows that I love and the color green in the pale of winter is wonderful ...I wandered amongst this bamboo for about 15 minutes wishing I could lay down next to it and really revel in its magnificance and absorb its energy ...

     


     


     


     


     


     

    I could have wandered for hours, but the sun was getting ready to set and it's really private propery. I wish that they would have preserved that Experimental Farm as a monument to the people who tended this land that many thought was worthless for growing anything. They changed a little of the face of the island and brought beauty where there wasn't  much and they enriched the soil with their love for farming in the old fashioned way. I suppose I do take a lot of pride in the fact that somewhere in the jumble of my genetic makeup is a piece of this farm. Handed down to me by my grandfather who worked it All those years ago. Also my great grandparents who knew these pioneers and were themselves pioneers right along side them. I honor their memory for all the hard work they did... and taking the pictures is my memory of re-visiting an era that has all but gone on this Isle.. It is sad to me .. but important to me to take many pictures of places like this so that in the future they may see just how bad it had to get - before it got better again .... Peace and thanks for reading and looking :) xoxoxoxoxxooo